Joanna Rosalynne ♥.

2010-07-16T19:21:00.000-07:00

It's been superduper long since i last post! Hah. Well, exams is around th corner. Can't really post a lot today. Perhaps another time. Bye! <3

2010-06-10T20:59:00.000-07:00

Baby you're the best, best i ever had <3.

Thank you for the start of this relationship, i will never forget this date ; 220109.

It's been so long since i last post (: Hah, been a little busy lately .. Perhaps not :p. Heheh! Okay, cut it short :p I went out yesterday with my dear friends, zakie & Akyn, Diniy & Danial. Well, we planned with sufie & qamar but they didn't show up at inter. It's kinda sad cause they somehow kept us waiting. But it's okay, qamar had his reasons to cover up .. Sufie? idk ): As long as we're having fun yesterday. Train'bus-ed down to Marina Barrage. Seriously speaking, i have not been there -.-" However mummy & brothers' been there. Hah, how pathetic i am. Ohh whatever. Diniy & Danial flew kite together with Zakie & Akyn. Hahah, As for me, i sat down. Had a ~~little tiff with Boyfriend~~, & i'm sorry. After all those kite flying & pictures taken, we bus-ed down back to MRT station. Zakie & Akyn went home while Diniy, Danial & i Went to the Changi Airport for dinner. Heh, ate macdonalds and off we went to viewing hall at T3, It was freakingly cold -.- Well, i sound rather odd when i type down. Hah, whatever. It's my blog anyway. Okay okay, went home around 11pm. Diniy had been a father for a day. Hahah. That's cute. Alright, i gotta get shower, Diniy gonna come anytime. K bye! :D

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2010-04-30T22:45:00.001-07:00

Ohmygosh.
I hope my blog is not dead.
Gonna post something tmr. <3
Toodles!

2010-02-27T20:48:00.000-08:00

Hello Twenty-seventh!

We're at Changi beach.

Hahah, was at changi beach yesterday. Really was a splendid day. Hahh, i enjoyed yesterday very much. Err, kind of lazy to post today. Enjoy my pictures. Hahh. P/s, i only upload pictures that are with my friends. Ohh nah, got vedio too. Hahh, view facebook instead k.

And previous post, picture with dearesr boyf. <3

Toodles.

2010-02-27T19:52:00.000-08:00

It's your chance take her hand to the floor (to the floor)

Girl if you see something you like then let him know

Cause you only got one chance share your first dance

So take advantage of the slow jam

Tell it JB

Yeah man

When I close my eyes I see me and you at the prom,

We've both been waitng so long for this day

To come now that it's here lets make it special

(I can't deny)There's so many thoughts in my mind the DJ's playing

My favorite song ain't no chaperones this could be

The night of your dreams

Only if you give...

Give the first dance to me girl I promise

I'll be gentle I know we gotta do it slowly if you give,

Give the first dance to me I'm gonna cherish every moment,

Cause It only happens once, once in a life time.

I couldn't ask for more we're rockin' back and fourth

Under the disco ball we're the only ones on the floor

[I can't deny], There's so many thoughts in my mind the DJ's playing

My favorite song now we're all alone, here's the opportunity

Only if you give...

Give the first dance to me girl I promise I'll be gentle(ill be gentle)

I know we gotta do it slowly, yeah if you give, give the first dance

To me (give it to me) I'm gonna cherish every moment, cause It only happens once, once

In a life time.

Everybody says that we look cute together let's make this a night

The two of us remember, no teachers around to see us dancin' close

I'm tellin' you our parents will never know before the lights go

Up and the music turns off now's the perfect time for me to taste

Your lipgloss, your glass slippers in my hand right here, we'll

Make it before the clock strikes nine.

If you just give, give the first dance to me girl I promise

I'll be gentle but we gotta do it slowly if you give, (give)

Give the first dance to me(give the first dance baby) I'm gonna cherish every moment(ooohhh whhoo), cause it only happens once, once in a life time

It's your chance take her hand to the floor (to the floor)

Girl if you see somethin' you like then let him know

Cause you only got one chance share your first dance

So take advantage of the slow jam

Yeah man

If you give(give it), give the first dance to me(give it to me)I'm gon cherish

Every moment cause it only happens once, once in a life

Time...

2010-02-19T04:17:00.000-08:00

I miss, i miss. Imisiqa.

I suddenly lost my mood in school today. Didn't have the mood to talk to my friends. Though i'm smiling, selvi said it's fake. ): I don't know uh girl, lately i've been having mood swings. Nvm ah, stay home for these two weekends. Gosh, nvm. I no mood to talk about. K bye.

2010-02-15T19:51:00.000-08:00

Sunday, fourteen february.

Was not really my happiest moment though, i get to spent time with my beloved friends <3

Thanks y'guys. On that day itself, i promised to bake cupcakes. But in the end, cancelled due to some other arrangements. Err, nvm. I didn't really wanna bring things up. There's always another day. (: Well, i already planned with them to go changi on that day but i cancelled it. Elfiey, my brother was sick. Poor him, my parents have to go to work. And i can't really rely everything on my maid. So, i became a nurse for half a day. Hahh, boring indeed. I didn't really have the mood that time. Hahh, i called my parents about 3.55pm, asking them what time they're coming home. At first wanted to ask diniy along, cs i last minute wanna go changi. Hahh. But sadly he's already got plan. So yeah, i got upset. Nvm. I showered bout 5.45 around there uh. Put on make up, get ready and off i went out which is after evening prayer which i didn't perform at all ;x Took 29 and drop at changi terminal. I see peoples around me. And i got this feeling inside me, feeling so insecure. It was night, dark. Like duh. Hah, the fisrt time i went there myself, by bus. Cs usually i went there by car. Alright, called, alfi and rakin. I was standing opposite the "ubin first stop restaurant". Hehh, okay. I was feeling awkward. So much, i suddenly got butterflies in my stomach. Hahh, i am dramatically weird. Non-stop calling rakin's ph asking them to hurry up, hurry up :D I know i'm irritating when comes to times i'm all alone. And it's night, so yeah. That's my excuses xD Alright, so once they fetch me from that terminal, we walked all the way to where they were all at. I thought they were alot of them. Unfortunately, it was just the five of them excluding me. Hahh, okay. It was th first time i hang out with rakin, zaki. And the first time going out with ahyeeen baby. In a proper "outing" i meant. :D Hahh, okayy. Everyone has a valentine date except for me and zaki. Sorry boy yeah, i got boyfriend already. I won't feel good though he's not around. So yeah, we're consider as sister and brother. Hahh :D I am so cute in that. JOKE! Alright ~ Blahblahblah* One word i can describe these whole thing, just one word which is AWESOME! Absolutely awesome. Hee ~ As opie and i were sitting near the sea. Just the two of us. We talked and cried. And we watched the stars shinning so brightly. Ahh, i wished ur by my side honey. Imissyouu. and ohh, i forgot to tell you guys, they were actually fishing. Hahh, which i find it boring. So, i took some photographs. It'a kind of bored and dark. So, it looks rather inproper -.- Hah, alright. I wanna edit eyrah's pictures since i promised her last week i guess. Toodles ! (K)

2010-02-04T04:36:00.000-08:00

Boredom kills me.

Yah, another post. I'm angry, stressed, hopeless and tempting to slit. Ahh yah, so what if it's stupid. Who cares about my life, feelings right. Hello? I could laugh bout' this 24/7 ah eh. Cb. CT1 is around th corner and i've yet to study. In fact, i lost my mood to study. I don't even feel like going to school tomorrow. I'm needed a break uh. Seriously. These whole pathethic thing seriously driving me insane. Urgh. Hate dilemmas. Why it has to happen to me? Why th whole time me, me, me and me? How do i feel before,now or later? No one knows. I'm like an idotic human lost in school today. I laughed like an freaking asshole, looking for dear someone pretending i know nothing. I, i just don't feel th comfortable days just like i used to before. Urgh. Goodness for heaven sake, I can say that life is SUCKISH. I swear it is. Only for some, i guess. Thanks sufie, beloved friends for th comfort. Though i don't really say anything to anyone. I don't understand myself lately. I seriously don't. Ahh, great. Forget it uh. Mood pon dah hilang. Fu*k.

2010-02-04T03:15:00.000-08:00

Him.

And "him", this is for you. You read it and you know what i'm talking about.

You've been acting weird since morning. First i was late, I said i'm sorry at th bus stop and then you looked away. Fine, i feel so, so much being like a wall to you. Next in school, i skipped social studies and you're th reason why i did so. I went to th canteen to look for you. I pretended as if nothing happen. Skipped lesson to just look for you. I said i'm sorry. Eventhough i'm still hurt. Lastly after school, tried to talk. Yah whatever. Wondering if your tummy still hurts. I rather talk to a wall. Perhaps that wall would understand me. If only i wish a wall would talk back. I tried to change "th day, my mood, your mood." Then, urgh. What's this fucking thing? Eh boy, if you think your playing this game where i don't really wanna play, then find someone else to play with but not with me. Thank you so much for eveything today. And bout "mimi", i'll replace with something. I promised. Tcrs.

2010-01-26T02:30:00.000-08:00

Opie, it's not th way to end ur life where god give you one to live. Ending ur life won't settle ur problems. In fact it never settle ur probs instead, ur problems getting bigger. Th only way is you, gotta solve it. May not be ppl helping you but i'm beside you. Never i regret to have a friend like you, i swear. Now i don't wanna talk about this. It seriously make me wanna cry. Oh allah. Life's getting complicated )':

I'm hot, my body is like, god damn it's burning. My heartbeat beats faster than it usually was. Godness, i feel sick. Nvm, so mamny things running thru my mind right now. I'mma need a break. bye.

2010-01-17T04:54:00.000-08:00

Ohh spaaaaaaain <3. Hahh, i don't know why my mood suddenly jumped on spain. Their language is so .. Hahhh :D Well, it's like so interesting. I wanna learn! Currently listening to gallery - spain version. Hahh, bored bored bored. Ohh my god, so boredd -,- Was on th phone with sufie just now. We were talking about alfie ;) Hahhh. Ur talking craps sufie. Waitwait, i never wanna miss this. I think qamar got his english sentence tumble up (Y) Very good siaa. Hahhh, must learn his dict. Hahhhh, Kkay. And hey, i'm superb mad at diniy :@ ! How can he forget about my bedtime story! :@ Ohh boy, you owe me alot! I want 4 stories tonight! Let me repeat myself, I WANT FOUR BEDTIME STORIES TONIGHT! And i mean it, TONIGHT :@! Grr. Kkay, enuf. I wanna edit my pichaaas first. Got aloooooooot siaaa. Hahh, kkay. TOODLES Sweetlinks ~

2010-01-12T02:48:00.000-08:00

It's been long since i post. Hahh, i guess(: Well, don't really enjoy sch days lately but now, hmm i think it's kinda fun. I don't really wanna drag th past so, just wanna say i'm sorry for th stupid attitude i gave you, ann. I just couln't stand th way you stood up terribly rude. In fact i didn't really wanna talk to you cs i'm not in a mood. Sorry :/ Okay, didn't really wanna drag my mood down. I'm very lazy for school tmr. Having D&T -.- BORING! Boo. Urgh. Nvm, I wanna talk more about ***Th usual G's ***. Sorry sufie, thought i wanna step back but when i think back, it's gonna waste. Only you knows what's gg on between Th usual G's. Gosh, why am i feeling this way? I wanted to avoid it but it's not just th right way. Guess i should talk rather than keeping it to myself. Well, currently updating blog, facebook, tagged. Here's new pic. Lost mood for photography alrd ): Toodles!

Lazy for school.

2010-01-03T02:32:00.000-08:00

I love you.

Baby I love you,

You are my life.

My happiest moments weren't complete,

If you weren't by my side.

You're my relation,

In connection to the sun.

With you next to me,

There's no darkness I can't overcome.

You are my raindrop,

I am the sea.

With you and God,

who's my sunlight,

I bloom and grow so beautifully.

Baby, I'm so proud ..

So proud to be your girl.

You make the confusion

Go all away

From this cold and messed up world.

I am in love with you.

You set me free.

I can't do this thing,

Called life without you here with me.

Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you.

I'll never leave,

Just keep lovin' me,

The way I love you loving me.

And I know you love me,

Love me for who I am.

Cause years before I became who I am,

Baby you were my man.

I know it ain't easy,

Easy loving me.

I appreciate the love and dedication.

From you to me,

Later on in my destiny.

I see myself having your child.

I see myself being your wife.

And I see my whole future in your eyes.

Thought of all my love for you,

sometimes make me wanna cry.

Realize all my blessings,

I'm grateful to have you by my side.

Every time I see your face,

My heart smiles.

Every time it feels so good,

It hurts sometimes.

Created in this world,

To love and to hold

To feel

To breathe

To love you ..

Dangerously in love.

Can't do this thingI love you , I love you, I love you.

I'll never leave

Just keep on loving me

I'm in love with you

I can not do

I cannot do anything without you in my life.

Holding me, kissing me, loving me.

Dangerously,

I love you ..

Dangerously in love.

2010-01-03T00:41:00.000-08:00

Everytime it feels good, it hurts sometimes.

I don't know why that i suddenly lost mood for trainings. There's a reason behind it but i choose to hide it to myself. Yes, it hurts. It hurts terribly. Life doesn't get any better when it turns out this way. God, only you can guide me through. I'm sick and tired of pretending that i'm always happy. School starts, and ohh shit. Training on monday -.- I'm lazy for tomorow. I look so puffy ... I lost my spects, don't know where the hell i put it :@ ! Urgh, meeting ahyeeen tomorrow. She's going shool with me. Hahh, oh nononono alamak. Means i gotta walk through leisure alone uh, ohhmygodd. Ohhmy, i'm afraid of the dark sia ): Urgh. Nvm, tonight i'll talk to her. So yeaah, i had a bad dream yesterday. First i was dreaming of me and my family ... [ it's been so long we spend time together, imisslasttimebetterthannow D': ] , We're at somewhere near northpark. I don't know why we were there. We were waiting for ?? .. idk. So yeah, i was wearing my white dress. Blahblahblah, talking halfway ... My white dress got dirty. Those dirts looks like paint. So i walk to a place, suddenly near my house there. Then got two guys, one of them veryvery the handsome wanted to help but i walk away. I gave him shit face cs i know i got someone. He ran after me :O, shocking right ? I feel so mean treating him that way, so i asked "is that tissue wet?" Then he just nodd his head. He helped me wipe the dirty stain on my dress and asked for my number. My mouth suddenly spit out with my ph number. But he kept getting it wrong, he kept repeating "9188 ........... 0112." Ohmygodd, i feel so wrong. And then i woke up and cried. No one knows about this untill i post it here. The next dream was yesterday. I dreamed that i met this someone. Well, he's a friend of mine. Not qamar, not farhan. Just a friend. Only one person knows who. He suddenly treated me like how diniy treated me. And it's shocking. We were like hugging walking with our arms held together. I remembered i woke up in tears again and this time i hardly breathe. I can't stop crying. Seriously i feel like giving everything up. There's a reason behind it. Why i kept dreaming of other guys where my heart is on diniy? Why is supersticious stuff like this happen to me? Yes, you can say it's just a dream but i hardly take that sentnce in. There's a reason why it came to me. Was it about you? It can't be possibly about me, it can't. I know i truely loveyou like how i love my parents. And i speak the truth. Why you hav to put such wish, wishing i know how much you love me? I know you love me but i don't know how big it is. Now i'm asking you, do you know how much i love you by jusy knowing i love you? Idts. You sound like i don't appreciate you. In fact i do. We argue over a matter, i know i'm always the first person who started the fight. And i did so cs i think we can sttle it in any way. But there's more stuff i hide from you, and i think it's the best way. Cs i don't want you to cry for me. Though i made you cry for me in the past, i got my point here with me. I'm aware of everything, it's just the fact that i don't know how to show. I kept quiet, i hide and almost everything about me that sometimes makes you sick, i know i'm just being real. I do this and that for you, does that mean i don't appreciates you? I purposely didn't want to visit ur blog cs i'm afraid that i might see "something" i didn't want to. I remembered you call me selfish, i know i'm one. But you have to love me for who i am. Not just what i'm like. Gosh, i wanna talk to you but at the same time i wordless. I want you to know how much i loveyou and appreciates you. That's all i ever asked. That's all )': And i love no one only you .. I need a rest. Tired.

You meant so much to me diniy.

And i want you to know that.

Ilyvm, only god know that it' true <3

2009-11-23T02:00:00.000-08:00

Hey people. Heh, so yeah. Didn't really hav so much stories to share. Uhmm, i got but that's not a story i'm gonna post. Err, yeah. Went to sch this afternoon. Went home about 4 ? i guess. Then play com. Meet my friends under my block for a while and now back to com. Currently chatting with dearest kak yayan & yanah. Hahh, i'm gg out soon. And yanah, here's ur pic. I've finished editing. My pics i'll edit tmr(: Toodles!

2009-11-21T18:42:00.000-08:00

Ohh yes, 22november is today ( ! ) I'm screaming inside cs it's th 10th month we're together. Though we've been thru so many lil obstacles that sometimes lead us to major arguements, yet i still loveyou no matter what. So yea, since i couldn't reply ur sms, i decided to reply here on blog. Like fr once let readers read. So, happy 10th monthsary honey <3>Heart matters and love grows. I love you for who you are and i know it's not easy to find someone like you. Yesyes, i can swear to you tt ur irreplaceable. No one can ever take over ur place, not a single soul i let in my life. Listen, i don't want you to misunderstood me and my guyfriends. They're just my friend and i want you to know how much you meant to me. Though i didn't really show you th love you wanted, in those lil things i do, really meant so much. We stop fighting alright? (: Let's start a new. Don't let unwanted situations stand in our way. Even if it did, we gotta fight thru, and walk together. I just realised tt fighting, yelling, argueing doesn't help. It never help, it just leads to serious situation and i hate that. From now on, i'll try my veryvery best to control my temper. And you hav to just believe in me. And most of all, thank you for everything you've given me. I treasure it with all my heart. Iloveyou, i really really do diniy :*

To yanah dearest, thank you fr th wish my dear. It's th 10th in fact, not 11th yet xD Nvm, thanks anw. Igt jgak eh kau. Hahaha, okay. You too last long with my ahmad okay loveee. Anything sms me, (:
Hello wooooooooooorld ! Hehh, yeaaah. Yesterday went to bugis with kak yayan <3 Shopping, hahh. I'm tempted to buy th whole shops. If only my daddy is a billionare. HAHAH ! Nvm anw, i'm gg shopping with mummy this week. Yeeaaaah! Finaaaaaaa-alll-lyyy ( !! ) Hee, uhmm.. So yeaaah. I'm nothing much to say. Whooooooooopts, later gg out with mummy. Aiyooo, i'm tired. Not enuf sleep uh. Hahh, nvm. I"m smilling. I'm smilling. I'm happy, as you can see. Okayokay, will be updating tomorrow. Toodall-leeees!

2009-11-20T06:09:00.001-08:00

Well, good morning heartlinks <3

Hahh, finally got my mood back. Now posting in a proper way is just th mood for today. Yeah, thanks "yourfriend", i end up yelling at my boyfriend yesterday. Ahh, this is what i hate, people don't know full story, talk like shit already. Hah, nvm. Only god knows(: So yeah, i've cleaned my tagboard. Bitches can bitch, spammers can spam. So means, i don't bother so much. Hah, i gotta think positive right. Mayb those people who spams me aren't happy with th life i'm leading. Got a perfect boyfriend, a perfect family. And yes, i ain't perfect people. I admit that i got one pathetic attitude even my parents couldn't handle me. Hahaah, but i'll try to change alright (:

So, now it's 10.42am, i've yet to bath. Hehh, very tired sia. My "prat" brothers woke me up in my comfortable sleep. WTF right?! I'm so mad, i screaaamed at them, erghhh. I wasn't supposed to on th com at this hour but i just don't care. Hahhhh :D Alriiiiiiiiiight, uhmm .. Ohh. I've spoke to mummy yesterday. I wanted to go shopping this month since th last two months i didn't. And yeah, th best thing she mentioned that, she's not working and yes! FINALLY, if not she keeps working and working. Then no time to shop -.- So pathetic. Haiyoo, hahh. Well, don't really want to reminiscing th past. Sometimes it really really hurts ;/ So yeah, can't wait to go shopping again. I saw so many things and that so many things i wanna buy buy buy. Okay, uhmm. I'm very hungry alrd, okk. Wanna eat now. Maybe posting tonight or tomorrow. Hahh, don't know why suddenly so active on blog :D Okk, toodles!

2009-11-20T05:38:00.000-08:00

Two months inside my womb!

HAH xD

Twins :D

One got birdbird one got pussypussy.

She called me mummy (':

Awwhh ..

Mamma hazira love you sayang :D

LOL!

hahahahaha.

OHHH! my favourite siaaaa :D

Baby alive doll set.

My baby <3

new born too xD

Alah, puppet. Isn't tt obvious ? *rolled eyes*.

Buy for me k papa :D

Buy for me k mamma :D

My baby inside package xD

CUTE right? ^^

New born y'know.

Ehhehh(: & yes, today, yesterday, th day before. Swaysway for me and eyrah. Tkp sis, kite together-gether ah. We hav our rights what ^^. Mayb it's just time for us to calm ourselves down. I'm fucked up too. But haish, only god knows how we really feel. Andand ohh hey, thanks for the laughters just now. I almost forget about my problem xD HAHAH! Aiya, don't care ah. Had some fun with Eyrah sayang. Went to tmall, t1, cs after netball. Ohh, don't really wanna talk about netball. Malas sak. Seiously no mood. Ok, whatever, went to eyrah's house. Siap2. Hahh, siap2 tp tk mandi. Ni case masam2 spray perfume xD LOL! prangai kau sia eyrah! HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA ~ Giler sia today. Okk, then we walked to tampines inter, On our way there, we were talking and laughing like mad DOGS. Hahah, cbeyyTHcbeyy. Sakit sia perot aku ketawe kekek kekek. Hahh, & yes. My pants suddenly drop :$ Memalukan siak, luckily th 'matMAUgiSEMBAHYANG' tu tk prasan. If not, ahhh.. I drop my waterface :$ :$ :$ :$ AHHH! reached tmall, ate long john. Thanks to me, very stupid go upsized drinks, then got to finish it all. WTF. I made th most stupidiest mistake. Haiyoo, kembong perot aku sia, mcm pregnant dua bulan. SIALS! Ehhehhhh xD Okk, after eating, we drop from one shop to one shop. Hahh, went to precious thots Then head to .. YES! TOY'R'US <3>

2009-11-18T23:27:00.000-08:00

Hello Babeeees /.

k, first of all, i'm currently not in a good mood. Urgh, i wanna go out with my darling guyfriends & dearest opie. Hahh, hmm.. mayb we go escape lah. Naknak? (: Then we go shopping k. Imissyou guys siaaaaa ! Hahh, i'm so bored at home, feels like dying. Ahhhhhhh ! If only i could play with penknifes, kan best best best. I swear i want to slit sia, mati kan bagos, tkyah menangis rabaq2, beg rabaq2 mcm sial. Ahh, frg it. Kk, we post yang better better lah. Aku malas nk bobal pasal bende yang menyakitkan hati mcm f lahh.
Ok, as you people can see .. I'm currently not-in-a-mood. Hah ! I've just say it above. Ohh, wtf. Kkk, i wanna post about something that makes me happy. Ohh, none -.- Hmm, maybe .. oh yesyes. Hey qamar, sufie, amirul ! We slack ah k. I'm superb bored at home. You guys are totaly fun to hang out with. You guys totaly make my day <3 Well, today is .. 191109. Yes it's only 3.42pm. Th blog's time is so not right, can't be bother at all. Whooooooooa! It's been a long long long time since i post. Hahh, Okkk freaking asses. I'm currently chatting with my darling girlfyy<3

HyPeR says:
haz....
lawa tak di play pic akue...
It's Hazira, spell it my way or else .. says:
ehhhhhhhhhhhh !
jambuu lahh Diaaaaaaaaa.
!!
HyPeR says:
hah!!!
i'm on my way to be in relation p with changkat ec..
yipeee..
cou in ***** 1g...
It's Hazira, spell it my way or else .. says:
seriousssssssss pe !
HyPeR says:
hehe!!!
It's Hazira, spell it my way or else .. says:
how would you know babe?
HyPeR says:
hot oi dher...
ko tgk pat fb aku ...
then cari ****** ***
It's Hazira, spell it my way or else .. says:
okok.
wait ahhhhh
HyPeR says:
ok...
age ame dgn diniy
It's Hazira, spell it my way or else .. says:
oh fifth-teeeeen? Wow.
i wanna see how handsome he is to youu dear (:
waitt ehhhs.
wait tausss.
HyPeR says:
dah tgk
It's Hazira, spell it my way or else .. says:
ok.
It's Hazira, spell it my way or else .. says:
what's his name again ?
HyPeR says:
****** ***
It's Hazira, spell it my way or else .. says:
wait.
what's ur fb name
HyPeR says:
*** ****
dah ngok
It's Hazira, spell it my way or else .. says:
tgh carik nihhhh .
HyPeR says:
oh..

Hahh, longlahh long. But hey, i can't really copy and paste exactly th whole thing lah. [ Adlahh privacy kite eh sayang, eh eh eh eh xp ] I hope you & him will last lahh. Hahh, i'm happy for you dear (: It's a lil boring uh, but nvm. I know, she knows, we knows. Only we two aje ay syg ?? Heh, okk. I wanna talk abt something else but not sure. Haiyiyoesssssssx. Aduh, suddenly lazy to go slack ahh. Nvm, i wanna sleep. Tired ah, toodles sugarydarlsx. ps/. I don't know what's that "sugarydarlsx" hah, okk. I'm done. So bye. Enjoy reading my shit post today f. ~

2009-11-09T23:22:00.000-08:00

Why is the smallest thing that always tears us down?

Hello babygiiirls & boys (: Heh, yes. That's my question, why is the smallest thing that always tears us down. Months passed and i find it stupid to fight over the smallest thing. Now, i finally came to realizing that it worth nothing. All you get is just wasting your tears crying for it. Let's get over those smallest thing alright? (: Okay go, imissyou honey.

So yesterday <3

Heh, yesyes, So yesterday was a splendid day for me. Untill .. one situation occurs and made me cried. I cried cs ;

a. Got seperated from opie, we're gonna be in different class next year. Like ohhmygod D;

b. Finah left both of us, and now. She's uncontactable. And that hurts girl, i hope you're reading this post.

c. Got seperated from yanah, whose been the one cheering me up. Thanks alot dear, i owe you (';

d. * I can't really tell.

Nevermind. Atleast i can still meet them, hope we're still be like how we used to be yeah. I'm so gon' miss you guys terribly expecially all the 2c's babies. Iloveyou guys <3

Yesterday met opie near school, i didn't turn up for netball training as i was sick. Urgh, pathetic. I waited for her to take her NCC thingy then we're off to prime. Planned to go my house, so instead of taking bus we walked. Hah, tiring maaaaaaaaaan! Nvm, a great noon exercise (: Andand opie, i seriously enjoyed yesterday. Thanks loveee/. And hey, thanks for sharing about your *blaahblaaahblaaaah*, i know you'll for sure gon' say " you know, i know, we know. Underground nya k b". Hehhh, loooooooooooooooooool. Sothebodoh. Okay skipped* Once we're at afghan i bumped on athirah. Heh, you scare me sey, i thought was who. Hehh, hello anywaaay. Met haziyah near Jc's mainroad and headed to my place. WE had a lot of great times together. Heh, i lazy to type already. Veryvery tired. I gotta get some rest first. Andand i miss someone already :$

Toodles sweetloveees .<3

I want shoppinglahh.

2009-11-04T19:35:00.000-08:00

Sayang maafkan aku.

Setiap kali ku fikirkan mu.

Diriku b'rada dalam pilu.

Jikalaulah ku boleh hentikan masa,

ku kembali semula.

Memperbaiki semuanya ..

Ku harap kau tahu,

aku ingin kan mu.

Kembali di sisiku,

jangan jauhi dirimu.

Sayang maafkan aku,

kerana ku tidak sengaja menghancurkan hatimu..

Sayang maafkan aku,

ini permintaan ku yang terakhir..

Maffkan aku, maafkan aku.

Kehidupan ku tanpamu,

ku bahagia untuk sememtara,

kemudian kembali menderita.

Ku tak sangka ia boleh meluka

diriku yang bersalah,

adakah ini cinta? ..

Ku harap kau tahu aku inginkan mu.

Kembali di sisiku,

jangan jauhi dirimu ..

Sayang maafkan aku,

kerana ku tidak sengaja menghancurkan hatimu.

Sayang maafkan aku, ini permintaanku yang terakhir.

Maafkan aku..

Sayang maafkan aku,

kerana ku tidak sengaja menghancurkan hatimu.

Sayang maafkan aku,

ini permintaanku yang terakhir,

maafkan aku.. maafkan aku,

kasih.

Tolong maafkan aku ..

2009-11-04T18:45:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry D': I swear i didn't know that it hurts you to see such a thing but you've gotta believe me. There's nothing between us. I only loveyou, just you. No one else. Only god knows, god knows the truth. He knows how much iloveyou. .. I'm nothing to say.

Boys, boys, boys. This post is specially for boys who tagged me. Thanks a lot ya. But hey, i don't need your compliments, such comments on my appearance. Don't you guys know what's attached means? Haish, didn't know you guys are such an idiot. Please lah, i only love one guy and there's never a chance for you to grab me. Who says my number can everywhere to be found? I won't reply unknown numbers. I seriously don't entertain guys who sms me this way >, " Hi, bley knal?". Don't you think this is stupid? You're simply making a fool out of yourself idiot -,- Saw tt name above? [ diniy ]. Tt's the only guy i love. Bloody hells, stop your shits on my tagboard as well as his can? Your mother never teach you manners huh? Your freaking irritating. Can't you just find s'one better? Bloody dog.

2009-10-25T03:54:00.000-07:00

What makes you think that s'one else is better than you?

You know what, i find it stupid to fight over a small matter. And the most stupidiest thing that always happen is when it gets big. So pathetic. Yes, it's true what you've said. It's too much, too much to fight over just a smallest matter and it gets big. C'mon, we're like 9 months plus together why are we argueing like urgh so immature. I admit that i am so sensitive nowadays. Urgh. Nvm, forget it. Now what, trying to tell me that a friend of mine treats me better than you do? This is what i hate about guys, they thought that there's another guy deserve our love more than him. But he never thinks how much they meant to us. One thing i notice about guys is that, before we're in a relationship, they treat you as if you're someone special with all those sweet words and stuff. But once after you guys are together, that sweet words and stuff won't everytime you heard. Only sometimes. I don't bother other guy, i don't care how hot, handsome, sweet and stuff compared to you. I love you for who you really are. I don't want us to end dear. Never i thought of it before. So what if things gets worst and i'm hurt, in fact both of us are hurt. We can't give things up halfway just like that. There's always a way out. No one says that there's never a way out. What makes you think that even if the only way to heal my heart is to move on our seperate ways? Have you ever think that it might hurt me more, like as if you're pushing me back to the dark side where i used to live in with. I dare to swear to you that no other guys can ever replace you. Every of my friends know how much you meant to me. I wonder if you appreciate me. Why i get angry at you sometimes and i started to ignore all your smses? And you're wondering why. Why i did so? Cause i'm stressed. I got other problems in mind and there you are giving me suckish attitudes. You know what, i'm tired. I'm very very tired to face such fact. Sometimes i wish i could slit again. I can say that slitting is the only way to stop me from crying. Yes, people says it's stupid. But it's not to me. You weren't in my shoes and you wouldn't know why i'm saying it. I'm disturbed with some other things and you're affected. My fault? I guess so. I'm sorry. How long are we going to go on like this? For the rest of our lives. I don't know. God, why is such things happening to me? Please, give me the courage to face every fact that's happening in my relationship. And you know the very very best part is that i'm avoiding my friends. Nvm, i don't wanna talk about it. Feels like crying. I've lost my mood and yes, i made my dad angry. D': I'm sorry papa. I'm very sorry. I swear i didn't mean to scold everyone such vulgarities. I just couldn't stand it. I'm sick and i'm tired. I don't know how i can tell you how i'm feeling right now. I'm disturbed, and i'm pretty sure you don't know what's wrong. I'm terribly sorry papa. True, i am rude. I didn't mean to make you angry untill your chest hurts. I'm sorry, cane me if you want to, slap me if you want to. I know you wouldn't want to pa. Don't give me faces. I'm rude right. I am. And i don't know when will i stop this stupid behaviour of mine. I'm sorry papa, i realised when i went wrong. Now i know why you never wanna cane me, you want me to wake up by myself and expect me to learn from my mistakes. I seriously regret of my attitude that i gave you earlier this morning papa. I should have listened to you at first. If only i could rewind time. I'm very sorry. I doubt you would read this post. Papa, when i heard what mama told me that you're talking to her about my behaviour, and when you told mama that it hurts you to see me like this. I cried. And now i'm expressing my feelings through my blog. Why am i like this? Why am i so selfish? When i'm gonna stop this habbit of scolding out vulgarities? When am i going to control my anger? I couldn't do anything to heal your heart papa. The best way is for me to hurt myself. I can't see you like this too D': I am rude, papa i promised you i'll change. I really do .. Forgive me pa. I'm sorry and iloveyou .. D':

2009-10-24T02:23:00.000-07:00

Yes yes ! So yesterdaaaaaaaaaay <3

I just don't understand why you gave me that attitude. I am so sensitive these days. Urgh, fine you know what, up to you ah. Go ahead and give me attitude. I won't reply you or even talk to you. Go on, c'mon. Go ahead and give me attitude. Make you happy right. You deserve it when i ignore you. I freaking pissed off with that s'one and yet your g'ving me *** Ahhhhh! Forget it lahh, talk so much about this makes me wanna cry more. I guess you don't have to bother about contacting with me, i'm gonna off my phone. You just don't understand me, urgh. These whole thing is a FUCKINGSHIT. Thanks to that s'one.

2009-10-20T02:54:00.000-07:00

So Yesterday.

"Why do people have to be so mean at times? If it's just the only one person your hating, why must the others get affected. Why? I'm starting to avoid myself from friends, all because i don't wanna get involve in serious matters and stuff. I had enough after all that s'one busted me once. You win this time, and i congratulate you. I'm saying this cause i simply think that your such a big jerk. Worst, a hypocrite. Why must you start to talk about people's back when came to just one boy contact your friend. Hey girl, it's none of your buissiness. Do you know what does friends means? Urgh, nothing to say/. I'm sick and i'm tired. I don't wanna mention your name here cause i don't wanna humiliate you online. I'll talk to you on thursday. Go ahead and scold me vulgarities, go ahead. I'm telling you that you get nothing after scolding me such words. This ain't a competition k, it's not a competiton. By calling me names, your still a loser. I swear to god that one day everyone will know the real you. The meanest person ever met. Girl, i hate you. I swear i hate you to the effing core. Bitch -.- "

Yesterday hahh, i don't really wanna talk alot. So paisey :$ Ehhehh(: Okk, skipped that part. Met fahfah parker, my bestfriend ever. She's sweet lah. Hahh, sadly she's attached gentlemen. Ohhohh, after i took my clothes from her we go afghan, i made new friend there. Amira :D, nice to meet you. She's sec 3 from siglap. The kind of fanatic. Hahh, i love your jokes. Totally :D Okk, we went there just to buy bbtea. Actually i wanted to slack with them, but it's night already. I have to go to school the nect day. Rehearse for chinese cinderella. Haiyo, i cannot shed another tears ready. I've been shedding back days. Haiyoyooo. Nvm, i'll try. Tomorrow is shooting, omg. OMG (!) Shooting sia. I have yet to memorise my lines. Okk, nvm. Relax relax, whoaa. Okk, nvm. I know what to do (: So, hahh yeah. Just now. Went to school. I was late, rushing here and there like *** hahh :D Reached school around 11+. I was all covered with sweats. EEWLL -,- Urgh nvm, Shitshit. kk, can't talk much. Mummy asked me scolded me ready. Toodles (:

2009-10-16T00:18:00.000-07:00

Now what? Trying to tell which is right and which is wrong huh? Eh girl ah, WAKE UP ah? Your not my mother to push me around idiot -,- If ur not happy with me can talk k. Cb, think i'm ur who ah? Your dog ah? You don't anyhow talk about people's back can? So what if i'm girly? Got problem with that? I'm gonna tell you off, your no one to me. Not even a friend of mine. Who says if i smiled at you means your my friend? Eh, living in life doesn't mean you have to be friendly. Why should i be friendly if from the way you treated me. Don't like, don't like lor. No my problem mah! Idiot. I don't bother you lah. Go mirror yourself lah. GO GO GO GO !! Urgh, Fucker.

I guess your right. What's the use of me telling you off? You don't evn get me. My feelings? Haish, ntg to say. I need time for myself. I suggest you better spend more time with your friends. They needed you more.

2009-09-21T08:48:00.000-07:00

Whoo ~

Raya lah sey [ !! ] Kaching kaching also i got, must diedie SHOPPING :D

Hagaga, alaaaaaamak Shit. Exams =.=

Urgh/. Nvm, i'll TRY to focus :D kk, gotta sleep now. Tmr need wake up early. Whooots, Nightnights.

2009-09-12T01:09:00.000-07:00

Thys whole thing is my worst nightmare D':

Ur such an asshole..

2009-09-03T06:24:00.000-07:00

Happy 15th anniversary to my beloved mummy & daddy <3
& and, happy 15th birthday dearest diniy <3
I loveeeyou..

2009-08-31T08:57:00.000-07:00

Always be my baby <3

Diniy! honey, i MISS you assholes (:

2009-08-31T08:09:00.000-07:00

Haa(: On 300809. I went out with them, my dearest girlfriends <3

Haa, well well .. we firstly hav to go to lib budden we were late. So qamar, idris, sufie and hafiz waited for us at tmall. just to hand me thy materials to decorate teacher's table. And so after collected those materials from them, they all went off to town want to break fast there. (: Haaa, and so .. opie, zeeyah and i went open plaza. Sit there lah, though it's raining but hee, thank god got sheltered place. We took pictures ^^. Cuteeeee sia. Haaa ~ Well well well, we then went T1. I bought my stuff(: Then then, go more than words. Ohhhhhh ! care beaaaaaaaaaaaaaar. Hee! hazira suke oieyyyyy. I WANT THY BIGGEST ONE, PINK COLOUR! :DDD Whoo-hoo! Then we went home. Well, not just tt lah, but i cut thru thy whole story just take thy important once aje (: Lazy tuo type lah xD okayokay, pictures above ppls. Only some i managed to edit cs it's night, gg sleep soon JUBS. Weeee ~

2009-08-31T07:01:00.000-07:00

My dearest juniors. Aren't they're cute (: haaa !

ps/. ppl ignore my face. It sucks.

Featuring ; hazira, big bird & molly.

Friends since primary school (:

Molly (:

Ohh dearest Aliyah(:

Haaa(: Let's get crazyyyyyyyy !

Haaa (: thys is my junior.

He's tt super kind of tall dude. Haaaaaa!

My dearest bestfriend ever <3

Haziyah, thank u for eveything we've been thru together.

U never fail to be a bestfriend tt's true.

ily.

Ohh 310809 <3

Thank u ppl for thy splendid day.

Kechyk and i (:

Thys is feerah (:

Ppl ! (: Thys is shaleen from thy left. She's currently studying in green view sec.

Pretty huh ! ;P

So there we are, in East Spring primary school (:

Having a great time yo. And ohh ahmad & rushidy, i am an ex-eastspringian.

U ppl won't recognised me cs i'm totaly different from now. Haaa !

2009-08-31T05:52:00.000-07:00

Ehhehh(: Todaaaaaaay was a SPLENDID day <3

Hee ! Today went to sch as per normal , we were released at 10+ .

So so so , in sch just now was like .. ~ ~ ~ ~

Nothing much to share. Just happy tt finah came. Except for one stupidiest thing happened. Hmm, i rather keep it to myself. Only opie and i knows. Well, after sch i went to block near playground just now. Sit there with finah and CHAT(: ohh i miss her. Well, chat abt thys and tt then i went home. Changeee and go out again, i sent finah to bust stop cs she wants to me fahfah parker. Then i went to primary sch meet kechyk, khairul and rushidy [ Rosy ] xD ehhehh(: no offence ahyeeer. Blah blah blah, * skipped *

Then met my primary sch friends, ohh miss them. In fact, we changed a lot yeah. Haaaa. Okay(: After all those blahblahblaaaaaahs, went lepak-ing with kak wani, kechyk, zuhairi, hakim, diniy, rushidy and khai. They went to my house, haaaaaaaa. I was a lil bored, okay not really. Actually my tummy pain :S urghhh, sungguh sungguh MEREPS. Abt 4+ liddat they went home. (: okay okay, next post i post pictures tt i've took today. Tooodles! And ohh btw, let me make an ANNOUNCEMENT first.

MARISSA FROM PASIR RIS SEC IS WANTED !

2009-08-20T02:57:00.000-07:00

Eh ehh ehhh HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

kk, having a bad day ytd. Don't even wanna talk abt it. Superb sad. Well, i think i hate thys two bitch. Sumpah i hate u two. Urghhh! PIG. Nvm, i be patient okk. See how long u want continue like thys. I don't want talk a lot cs i know i'm hurt enuf. Look urself in thy mirror k bitch. Got many guys in thys world go look for one on ur own. Don't take ppl's one or even blame ppl for taking him. Sumpah siak, i feel like ******** Urghhh, dgn die die skali aku benci. FUCKER. Dah dah, enuf. One day i'm gonna do s'thing, s'thing makes u guys feel guilty towards ppl ard tt u've hurt before. WAKE up lah cb! I SWEAR I HATE YOU!

Okay, exams are finally over(:

I don't really wanna talk abt it cs .. haish.

nvm. I'm 10 % happy and 90 % sad. I don't even wish to tell cs i know thys matter don't really involve ppl here who is reading it. Only for 2-3. I hate you bitches. I hope one day u wake up and in future, i swear u'll get thy same prob as i'm having now except tt it's 10 times worst. Thanks a lot uh eh, thank u for making me feel thys way. I'm not talking abt my boyfriend but i'm talking abt these two SLUTS. Thank u for making my day worst, thank u for almost making me wanna end my life, yah lah, u saw me. U know what i did right. I admit tt i took pills. I did slitting again cs of why. I just can't stand anymore. Thys prob has been dragging cb. i'm feeling thy same way everytime u mentioned his name. Enuf is enuf. I"m scared now. I just don't feel like i wanna move on here. Idk lah.. i don't really wanna make it obvious to everyone. Only a certain ppl knows abt thys. A close friend of mine. She understands me and i believe tt .. haish. Idk lah, i feel like there's no hope for me to move on .. I don't even feel like living. I've been crying, these feelings been struck thru my mind. Idk. Is either i wanna end thys by running away, though i know it won't bring me far, Tell thy truth, have thy guts to talk to tt person or either keep it to myself and let me end it by ending my life. I'm not gonna let ppl read thru my probs, i just hate to share what i'm facing now. All i know it's just me and my problems tt will not bring me happiness. Why? Why is things happening to me? I hate her, i swear i really do hate her. A hypocrite, A boyfriend stealer. I hate u. I really really do. & i'm sorry if i say tt i hav to cut myself.. I wish these things would end. Cs i can't stand it much longer. Mayb it's thy end of me? Or mayb it's just a goodbye? Should i let go? Should i sacrifies my feelings just to make ppl happy? Or should i tell thy truth so tt pll understands me? No i can't do tt.. Idk. No idea. I know tt i'm sensitive, pretty much emotional but .. nvm. I don't feel like i wanna elaborate more. Cs now, my tears are dripping. Thank u sluts a lot, thank u for everything u've done to me. I hope ur happy seeing me like thys. And one more thing to readers, If u read thys,. pls don't ask me who is tt girls or why, what's wrong.. I won't ans tt question. I'm sorry but i have to think abt myself thys time. Go ahead and call me arrogant, ego, selfish, stubborn.. go ahead cs i don't care what u guys are saying. I wanna be alone, be with myself. I don't want anyone to be my side.. I don't need ur help to solve my probs. I can do it myself. Thanks jie, mei for thy cheering me up though it's not working but still thanks. I'll try my very best to think positive.. ily.

2009-08-16T07:54:00.000-07:00

Hellooooooooooooooo! (:

Heee, today ohh today.

Supposed to study at ikea with lia & isk.

Budden i can't go out.

Daddy don't allow me. * sad *

Haish, nvm. tomorrow lah okay(:

Went airport with bibik, syasyah, ifah & shah.

Haiyooooooooooooooo, i sleepy sia.

okayokay.

Gotta sleep now.

Tomorrow fasting uh.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa(:

Goodnight.

^^ * yaaaaaaaaaawn *

2009-08-16T06:53:00.000-07:00

So yesterday.

Ehhehh(: Hellooooooooooooooooooo!

Hahh, i should be studying at thys time but instead, i post.

Hmm, ytd was like a ************ hahaha!

Okaylah, buleh tahan. Gerek ? not so, mcm biase uh.

Yesterday got GIFT carnival(:

I was like superb HYPER.

Idk why. heee(:

I firstly woke up abt 5+ i guess, can't really rmbr ;D

hmm, then went out from house abt 6+ ..

Met DINIY [!] under void deck :D

He emo-ing lah. Hahh, sorry BOSS!

Well, saw DEAREST EYRAH & minmin.

Then tros tros tros , wanted to wait for siti, she was late.

So we walk in schooooooooooool first. Sorry Prettay tk dpt tunggu(:

Tp tkp, atleast we're having a great great time kan? haaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Okkayokay. Dah gituh, do my duties.. boring. I wasn't really doing it but instead playing xD haaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Okkay, saw opie with ballooooooooooooooooooooooons! * Skipped *

I took doggie doggie from gina(: She gave me, [ thanks brandon who took for me tt DOGGIE. ]

Heee xD Cute budoh tros tros tros , last last ballooooooooooon tuh * BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMB * , meletup ):

Aiyaaaaa, tkp lah. Can always get another one right? hahahahahaha.

Played basketball, SUMPAH TK TAU MAIN LAH.

Tkmao ejek uh, do u know tt playing basketball is much much more difficult ?

I used to netball rules lah sey.

But nvm nvm nvm, got 3rd pon i'm not happy cs i couldn't even get thy ball -,=

Hah! Don't care laaaaaaaaaaah.

Captains ball more fun.

1st tautautau! (:

Heeeeee, nice GAME tampines sec & Junyan sec.

Okayokay, after tt thingy was all over, went homeeeeee.

Showeeeeeer, dress up & go out(:

Meet DEAREST arfah, went to airport and bought ph strap(:

I bought letter D, Then gave diniy letter H.

Okay * skipped * .

After tt went arfaaaaaaah house.

Study there, diniy was there.

* skipped *

Abt 10+ went home, kesian diniy tired tired, sleepy sleepy still want walk me home. Stubborn child but aiya nvm lah, thanks honey(:

Okay, i guess tt's all. Gonna post abt today's latest story. Going up ^^

2009-08-13T06:23:00.001-07:00

I miss you honey )':

.. Currently doing maths revision.

Just came back from sch. Haish, stress sia.

Today is like thy bad day for me, i cannot even talk properly, fuck kan?

I got s'thing in my mouth. Pain giler siaaaa. Want eat or drink mesti sakit giler sia.

Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! )':

Just now at sch i keep want sleep only sia. Head god damn it heavy,

hmm .. i accidentally sniff .. , haiya, nvm lah.

Few chapters ahead. God, many per.

Shit. huhu ):

I feel as if my head want burst sia.

& ohh, just now a few mins before sch ends, got thys one guy [ donno who called me ]. I guess thy call is diverted or s'thing idk. haiyo, i asked him nicely ..

Princesskau ; " who is thys? "

Stranger ; " kau tanyer sape aku?-yan. kau sape setan? "

[ Like wtf kan? cb, i very angry sia. ]

Princesskau ; " Eh sial lah. Eh pukimak! Tk perlu ah panggil org setan. Sundal, kau yg call aku kan puki! "

[ tros tros he went ****, urghh! i hate tt guy so much, i swear he die tmr sia. AMIN -,= ]

Stranger ; " eh mak kau peh puki. nk maki, kite jumpe ah y. bopleh pe? acm jumpe ah pukimak. "

[ eh siak uh, prangai sia ni jantan. Sumpah sia i HATE him to thy effing' core. ]

Princesskau ; " kau nk jumpe kn. ahk jumpe ah sia, puki sial. "

[ Urghhh. He then called me, i asked mr chia for permission to ans tt call. I call him names & scolded vulgarities, urghh! Then i hung up. I don't care sia. Think i scared is it? cb. ]

Stranger ; " eh kau tkmo byk prasan la. aku tkd dial ni num pn. TKMO PRASAN. trip ah lu! "

Princesskau ; " eh kalao kau tk missed call aku, i wouldn't be smsing u asking who are u IDIOT. cb "

Stranger ; " sblm nk smbrg hembus, g check mane tau org divert "

Princesskau ; " ya lh whatever shit uh "

& so tt's how it ends. & i'm still freaking pissing off sia.

I don't care if u got thy wrong number, just tt mind ur manners eh.

I'm not a girl who like to lyn guys who like to call me names like tt. Eh hello, setan tuh kau bukan aku tau sundal. FUCK YOU! idiot.

Serious sia, i feel like killing him sia, urghhhhhhhh!

Otak sot siak.

Not just tt sia, just now also got banglah call me. Cb sia, otaaaaak sot siak. I cannot control my anger go scold him, yelled at ph. & thys time i'm sure, it's not a divert call cs i was staring at my ph just now suddenly tt number appear. normally if tt call is diverted, there must be a signal or whatsoevershit uh.

BANGLAH GO JAHANAM uh! puki tiang sia. Today bad day buto, sumpah sia. I fell like crying hard now.

Worst thing worst, i didn't even saw my boyfriend today at sch except at bbtea there. Waloaaas, sad sia. haiyo nvm lah. I want study ready. Talking abt thys thing makes me wanna cry sia.

I swear i hate today

)':

2009-08-13T06:23:00.000-07:00

Whooo-hoooooooo!

Helloooooo(:

ehhehh, okay..

pheeew, what-a-day.

Just came back from ws.

Well, went to mac with lia, isk & fahfah PARKERRRRR. <3

ohh i love them.

Okay, we study - lah! LIKE duuuuuuuuuuuuh.

hahahaa!

okayokay, hmm.. started off with maths.

NON - stop lah sey.

3 hours straight.

TIRED., i even feel like crying cs having headache.

haiyoo.

I regret sia, seriously REGRET.

I should hav got my head in class, during lessons, paying attention and write notes down.

I exactly MISSED thy whole topic sia.

U imagine, 7 CHAPTERS sia for exam.

& i fgrt EVERYTHING!

Omg, DIE.

Scared sia, die die must do revision.

Die die must pass exam sia, die die must get b sia for maths.

Science? RABAAAAAAAAQ siak.

English? Boleh - lah.

Mother tongue? Cukup makan-,=

History? HELP ME PLS! ****

alaaaaaaah, i knew i shouldn't have skipped class, absent myself from sch just bcs i'm not in a mood.

I should have listen to tt " someone "

Sorryyyyylah, i regret sia.

Now then WAKE UP.

Like whadddduhtoot*

SLOW SIA HAZIRA.

Urghhhh, gotta pull up my socks.

huhuhu): ppl, go study eh sunday.

HELP ME OUT.

I"m desperate for notes ..

huhu!, not gg to post for a while.

Gotta focus uh.

okk, gtg now.

Need to sleep.

tmr school sia.,

TOODLES assholes.

2009-08-12T05:37:00.000-07:00

Helloooooooooooooooo ;D

Ehhehh! Long time since i nvr post.

Blahblahblaaaaaaaahs, well things are back to normal except ..

nvm.

Okkayokay, everything changes.

I see.

Ohh well, exams comming and i'm here sitting down relaxing! omg, gotta work hard siaaaa.

I don'tchwaant fail sibeiiiii.

Okayokay, fasting month is ard thy corner.

HOPE i got period. heeheeheeeeeeeeee xD

okkay, i miss my lovelyy cutieyy wifey ; KAK MIRaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa <3

i miss kak bobo & kak diana.

I miss my girlfriends.

I miss arfah & i hav to admit tt i miss finah )":

Okkay, hazira stop crying.

BLAHblaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs..

I want go tmart with bibik but bbteaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa now.

Toodles assholes sweet theng.

xoxo ;

Haziralah(:

princesskau/.

I loveeeyou diniy JUBs. ehhehh(:

2009-08-03T06:08:00.000-07:00

I'm scared.

Not in a mood to eat.

.. ? I just feel like crying.

I don't want ppl to know what's gg on but all i can tell is tt my neighbour died and i'm scared to go out myself.

Thy onther reason, privacy ..

I'm cold, i'm shivering.

But idts i'm sick.

My ph spoil, Freaking pissing off ytd.

Was mad at my maid,
SHE HUMILIATED ME.

Fuck you hard hard.

I wanna cry.

Omg, why am i feeling thys way? ..

Idk. YEAH, pls pls .. s'body tell me what's wrong.

Why am i feeling uneasy?

Tmr, tuesday ..

I think i gg 16 floor.

I wanna throw out all my emotions up there.

Sorry my friends, idts i'm gg to slack with u guys.

I really need time for myself.

I'm sorry.

I'm currently doing my homework.

Can't post too long her on blog, I'm not in a mood.

Dear, together we cry a happy tear (':

I'm sorry, i'll change.

I promised.

Just giv me thy chance.

2009-07-29T18:50:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry )':

Gosh, it's been so long since i post.

Been a lil busy lately. Currently doing e-learning & listen to sad songs.

BORING siaaa.

My bat low alaaaaaaaamaquee.

Now chat chat chat with ahmad idris. ps/, i'll grow TALLER s'how.

Tsk. haiyoo haiyoo haiyoooooooooooooooo.

So many things running thru my mind now.

I'm having a bad time, ouhhmmgeee. I nd ur help dear. If only u can scan thru my mind, i hoped u understand.

I miss u, i really do )':

I'm ntg to say, all i have to do is just face it anyway. Omg.

I'm feeling uneasy now, i feel like .. as if my heart is sinking now.

.. Ending here.

2009-07-18T20:17:00.000-07:00

Hahah(:

Funny right.

Gosh.

Alright alright. Enjoy bitches & sluts.

2009-07-18T19:48:00.000-07:00

O'kkay peopleeeeeeeeees.

I'm back.

Having a bad situation lately,

Nvm, fgrt abt it. He suck anyway.

SO IMMATURE.

Ughh, whatever sia.

Nvm, we shouldn't fight fire with fire.

Fight fire with water.

Means .. I have to be patient.

O'kkay fine, i will.

But still, i'm not satisfied sia.

UGHHHHH! ENOUGH.

Let's start about thy day i went to thy bitch with kak bobo, kak dianah, liana, fazera & iskandar.

Ohh' alrightyssss.

Fun lah, but sadly my boyfriend is not ard.

Nvm, hmm.. when was tt eh?

hmm.. yeah, 110709.

Cool can? heeees(:

Well, i did so many things there.

FAzera's intention is to push lia in thy sea.

I was ther elaughing laughing laughing and end up, i was thy one who were carried there by them.

I put in a lil drama like so called "literally fainted"

hahhas!(: Budden fazera is not stupid, she tickled me.

Haiyoooo):

I'm a lil wet.

Hahhs, but but nvm .. as long i'm having fun.

Except thy sand is inside my shorts.

Ewll, yuck yuck.

Nvm, *skipped*

Watch sunset(:

I likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, okkay.

We even took alot of pichaaaaaaaaaaaaas.

I'll post later.

Hmm, okkkay.. i lazy type ready,

currently msn-ing with my dearest meimei ; Sabrina honey.

So, i'll just post pichaaas yeah.

Hahhs, Toodles.

2009-07-07T07:31:00.000-07:00

Well well well, look who's talking.

Baru sec 1, prangai mcm puki tiang.

Eh hello, next time before saying s'thing abt me, look urself in thy mirror horh.

Anyhow call ppl noob.

Then u le? Worst than a noob.

Oi Sundal! kau dgr sini baik baik eh pariah, muke kau tuh kalah muke aku.

Atleast i got my LOOKS better than urs DORK.

cb. Muke tcrs eh pompuan, skali aku sepak kau meninggal ah.

Fuck u lah cb, !

Fucking ass.

2009-07-05T00:29:00.001-07:00

Ohkkay people(:

I mentioned about thy song ; ♥ Sayang maafkan aku.

Right ytd?

Well, here's thy song on my blog.

Nice kan?

hee! :D

i know, very sweet, very meaningful.

Till here ; Omg.

I miss my boyfriend.

Gonna be one whole day nvr sms him )':

2009-07-04T09:02:00.000-07:00

Hello hello hello people ! (:

hee. I miss my boyfriend.

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs.

Well, as u can see i finally changed my blogskin.

back days i've been very busy and hmm.. yeah, and i was having a critical situation.

Nvm, whatever whatever whatever.

Just now, went whitesands with kak yayan, fun lah of cos.

laugh laugh laugh till our ass almost pop!

kkay, mereps siak tuh phrase. sembarang tembak siol hazira.

sepak meninggal.

kkay, first we were at mac.

Studylah(:

good girls kan.

hahhs, dah gituh gituh.. kite pakai lappy. kak yayan bawak.

teros batt lappy tuh mati x_x

shit.

Then we go whitesands library.

sit there with lappy on.

we're busy with facebook, blog, friendster, photoscape and photobucket.

okkay, th best part i SUMPAH i really ENJOY it.

Is when i helped kak yayan edit her "ttm" pic.

so and so, she renamed it as "babiiiii".

I laughed non-stop.

Then we took out many cartoons face and put it over her "ttm's" face.

we laughed like *****.

hahh, then went to one of her fren's blog.

heard thy song ; sayang maafkan aku.

Th song very sweet buto, mcm nk nangis siakk.

nvm, nxt post i'll take th vedio and th lyrics as well.

kkay, speaking of songs..

Puki tiang siak, i was at mixpod edit some songs.

Then i was looing for my fave song ; " be with you" by akon.

NICE BUTO.

You people must listen.

SEDAP GILER babiii nyaaa, cfm cuke.

hahhh! kkay, looking fr tt song skali tk jumpe.

FUCK KAN?

cbeyy.

Blaahblahblah .. then ard 8+ liddat, we went home.

I was supposed to meet mama, syasyah & syahfiq near finah house.

Wanted to buy some things and then i ended up taking th wrong bus -_-"

Bodoh sia hazira, sepak meninggal siak.

Haiyoo, so no choice i just go home.

Blahblahblah, liddat only lah my story fr today(:

heee ! It's 12 O COCK :D

Need to sleep.

But but, before tt.. Happy birthday iqa & kak mira [my lovely wife].

Goodnight sweethearts ^^

2009-06-19T08:25:00.000-07:00

this is her boyf helping her to blog , HAH.
kpokpo. XD. what happen to her blog sia -.-
all capital letters , wtf.
kkkkkkkk.
b ! imisyou oieeeeeee. ):
lurbxz.

2009-06-19T05:18:00.000-07:00

Hazira ! <3

Butterfly ohh butterfly.

Tsk. Bored* lah.

okkay, end here lah. tired(:

2009-06-19T05:09:00.000-07:00

I miss Haziyah lah.

When can we meet sis? We got so many things to share siak. I miss u so much biotch.

Haziyah ohh haziyah (:

Sayaaaaaaaaaang haziyah <33

2009-06-19T05:05:00.000-07:00

My Boyfriend ^^.

Ohkay, i'm bored. Haha(:

Well, i love thys pic. I find it hot.

Okay, nothing to say ready.

Ehhehh(: Ohhh, i loveee him tau.

He's mine biotch!

2009-06-19T04:57:00.000-07:00

Love.Love.Love.

2009-06-19T04:37:00.000-07:00

HYDIR PEOPLE! (:
But DIDICAZLI pon not bad.
Hmm, tapi kan .. DINIY is still MINE ONLY.
And ohh, i miss boii ejan lah.

Ehhehh(:

Yesterday, i met thys cute cute guy. He's my new boyfriend. Ehee! He's he's 5 yrs old. Named, asis. VERY CUTE BUTO. Kkay, well not really my boyfriend. Hahah(: I got ready what. ONE enough lah. Tsk. Kkay, opie and i was bullying him ytd and her cried. Bcos, i took away his slippers and asked him to hug me xD and so he did, but he hugged me very tight siak. Hahaha(: & so opie go carry him. I knew he's about to cry. So so, i ran away xD Yeah so, i am a lil bustard ytd. Then blah blah blah* I said sorry. U know what he said?? " Tk payah lah. Dah lambat," then i was like.. god, he so good in his language siak. Hahaha! Then i am such a Drama queen, go and said "Kite dah tknk fren awak lagi lah! Kite bilang mama & papa kite yang awak marah pat kite." pointing to kak mira and diniy xD Cbeyy siak hazira. then blah blah blah* when i want go bus stop, he and his cousins go after me and he shy shy come out said " I LOVE YOU." then i was like, awwwh(: " i love you too." haha, cute. Then don't know who screamed " BYE ! BYE !". Nvm, not so important to me. And so, take bus home. Diniy sent me. Having a lil probs ytd. So, i wasn't really in a good mood. Cried so bad. And yeah, i can't tell alot cos it's kind of personal.

2009-06-19T04:27:00.000-07:00

Assy-Holeeeys(:
So so so, one week to skewl reopens. Can't wait to go skewl cos i want to meet my dearest friends, lazy to go bcos i hate waking up in thy morning. & scared of teachers starry eyes. Wow! heee xD Well, i seem like i gained weight. I look BIG but still short. & i don't like tt. I want loose weight siak. Bibik asl me along go jog with her i cannot wake up. At 4am siak! Punye lah pagi .. what a dawn what a dawn. SUMPAH DEMI GOD SIAK, my face want go jog at tt time. Ohh-myy-godddddddddd. I'm such a lazy ass. Always wakes up ard 10+ or latest 1+. Ehhehh(:

ohh well, I'm lost again. Read next post kkay(:
Reason : Just look at my pichaaaas. Explain later on top ^^
TOODLES BOGEYYY ASSS.

2009-06-19T04:11:00.000-07:00

September people!
I wanna cut concave layered, rebond thy sides and fringe and gonna perm it wavy looks! yes ahhh, can't wait can't wait. Thys is like omg(: Hazira is going to look different with new contacts. I'm going natural by thy month of september.

ohkayy, tt's still long way to go. June first kay(: 25june c'ming. haiyoo, i don't want grow up siak! I want stay like thys :'( Tsk. 14 pulak tuh! NIGHTMARE ; sabo. Alaaaaah. Don't lah, I innocent siaaaaaa. Fuck* & ohhh ohhh, Happy Belated Birthday Opie & Maisarah munib. Well, Happy advanced Birthday to my MOST BELOVED TWIN SISTER ; Si hui. Ehhehh(: 26 june kay people. And and .. ALIMAK !
I forgot what i want to say xD Ehhehh. sorrrrrrrrrrrryy banget deh people. I guess tt's all. I nothing to say ready.

TCRS ASSY-HOLLEYYS ! (:

2009-06-19T03:16:00.000-07:00

Wow, i thought i was thy only one who's having some kind of probs. kkay, shhh ..

My friend told me tt her ex boyfriend, *Can't tell*, wrote her a song. And tt song was like so touching. He wrote it with tears down his cheeks. He recorded it and sent it to my friend. She was crying with tt song and thy lyrics in her mind. No one knows abt tt song, except for both of us. Well, i got to admit tt his voice is hot(: kkay. Well, it's his mistake. Now he learnt from his mistake, he finally realised what he had done. He wishes for a second chance. But will tt going to happen? No. b'cos, she's attached now. I know tt her feelings towards him is still there but i'm sorry *my friend's ex*.. She got to move on. U've hurt her so bad. She cried badly and it took her seconds, hours, days and weeks to make a wise decision to accept another guy. Why did u do tt for? tsk tsk. I'm sorry, perhaps thys is what u get when u hurt someone who really really loves u. Haishh, nvm nvm.. i'll get to my post next next next.

Spent my days .. in my room. Duh! Uncle came and sleep over. Got out almost everyday.. Do my own thing. Blah blah blah* My lil' finger on my right got fractured :'( Can't play netball. Scared to go doctor. But i'm forced to. Haiyoo, bad luck siak. School's going to open soon and i'm scared. 1st my homework i'm not done, 2nd i'm afraid to get out of house. See all teachers face makes me wanna cry. bcos their stares make me think og BOOGEYMAN. Ehhehh(: I was .. having a .. bad day .. ermm .. sad one .. but but .. i'll .. try to to .. changed. I PROMISED. Pls, i'm sorry. I won't do it again b. I'll be a good girl. Sorry, i didn't know i've gone so far hurting u badly inside. i know tt sorry won't mend a broken heart, but i'll try my very best to fix tt hole inside. I'll do anything just to gain happiness like last time again. And i'm sorry. I've learned my lesson from my mistakes. I'm finally awake. Don't worry, i won't touch penknifes again. Promised.

2009-06-14T06:16:00.000-07:00

Well, thys is my last post for now.

I hope u guys loveees my pichaaaaas.

It's a lot, yes i know.

ehhehh(:

I'm listening to rela setia by didicazli.

Gosh, his voice melt my heart.

kkay tears !

ehhehh(: ut it's okay people, i'm fine.

Tcrs.

I'm smilling people.

2009-06-14T06:11:00.000-07:00

Eeraaa's best shots! (:

2009-06-14T06:07:00.000-07:00

Get it?

See me when i'm smilling, not when i'm cying.

Keep smilling people.

2009-06-14T06:04:00.000-07:00

I'll keep my promises.

i'll never letting go of my hands nor let it slipping away.

ily.

2009-06-14T06:02:00.000-07:00

See me when i'm smilling(:

Not when i'm cying.

Ohkaaaaaay!

I got nothing much to say but a lot of pichaaas to post.

But to me, those pichaas i took has a different meaning behind it.

2009-06-14T05:57:00.000-07:00

Tired tired(:

ehhehh, thys pichaaa was taken when i was talking to finah outside house.

not sure what time.

& thy previous post abt tt one i just woke up, thy story is down there.

Just read read kk?

Comments keep it to urself.

Cos i don't even bother.

ehhehh(:

kk boring lah!

I don't know what to say.

Eh eh, i've watch hannah montana movie ready.

Sorry adeed, i forgot to tell u xD

ehhehh, & sorry 2B babies! i didn't go out with u guys.

having a hard days behind(:

Hope u guys understand honeys.

Love u guys ohh honeys.

see u when skewl reopens..

anything sms me!

Ending here ^^

2009-06-14T05:52:00.000-07:00

I've just woke up. Looking in thy mirror.

& ohh wow, i love my hair(:

ehhehh, & so i take it.

pichaaaaa up up there ^^

Cool kan my hair? hee, especially it looks so big but i don't really like thy colour.

haishhh,

nvm nvm.

Italked to finah tt night(:

Ohh gosh, i miss her.

I talked to her on ph outside thy door.

eventually i've just stopped crying.

Tired*

haiyooo, but then.. share stories with finah and she shared hers with me.

ohh yeah yeah yeah, i post it today but tt thing happened 2 days ago.

Alright, my uncle came today.

blahh blahh blahh,

Skipped*

Now in mama's room.

Doing blog ohh blog(:

kk nothing to say already.

Ending here ^^

2009-06-14T05:40:00.000-07:00

Can i play with penknifes again? (: I won't do anything stupid. My hands are itchy, Wanted something sharp. Tt will do.

Do i still have hope?

Wait .. Hey people, hys is my blog. So i write and say whatever i want.

Thys came from thy bottom of my heart. Don't stopped me, cos it's my bussiness.

I'm so confused.

Haishh, people, sorry if i'm being harsh on u ok.

I wasn't really in a mood.

Like, nvm.

Skipped Skipped Skipped.

Skipped skipped skipped skipped.

What should i do?

I've been in my room for days.

locked myself up.

Afraid to step out.

I don't know.

So many things running through my mind.

MANY.

u guys don't wanna know coz it hurts.

HURTS so bad.

Well, i'm going to flood. afraid people tt "i don't really want them to know whats hapening to me back days" to read.

I don't want them to kepp worrying about me.

I always said tt i'm happy. Very happy but inside i'm crying.

Crying silenly.

I hide my secrets to myself.

No mater how hard u try to force me, i won't tell.

I don't care what u say, but i know i'm doing thys coz i don't want to hurt u.

I'm sorry.

I miss finah, ann & opie very very much.

I miss my wife [ Kak mira ] & my brother [ Tonchitt ].

I miss my boyfriend as well.

Maybe thys going to be thy last time.

Last time i'm playing with ________.

Ending here

2009-06-14T05:28:00.000-07:00

I'm not really in a mood these days. Feels like .. nvm. People won't understand me.
They just think.. nvm. I don't know how to say, it's like i don't really know myself. Yes, i looked and even sound different. Because what i'm feeling inside has changed.
totaly changed. How i wished i could turn back time and learn from my mistakes. But i know tt those things won't come back. I'm crying every moment, every moment when i feel like i'm missing something part of me.. something precious tt belong to me. I don't how to tell. I wanted someone who can really understand me, listen to me. Someone who can really help me.. Bur i know tt no one does. No one is there to help me to go though this. Why is thys all happening to me? Everything changes but life doesn't stops for anybody. Somehow i feel like ending my life but i just can't. There are many people i thought of, my family, friends, boyfriend. urghhh, Thys may sound pathetic. I need my life back. I want everything to go on my way. Everything i expected to turn out thy way tt it should be. Maybe i have too much hope. Maybe i think too much. Maybe i have too many secrets between myself. Whatever.. Ending here ^^

2009-06-03T21:50:00.000-07:00

I'm offended.

i can't take thys anymore.

:'(

i'm inactive for a moment..

:'(

2009-05-31T00:51:00.000-07:00

If you don't understand my silence, you'll not understand my words ..

2009-05-31T00:44:00.000-07:00

I Don't care what they say, I'm in love with-you.

Going out later with mama & adeq(:

I don't know what to wear., i wanted to go bugis and buy tt BEAUTIFUL dress.

ehhehh, but but.. i lazy to go out.

Today very HOT.

I'm now sweating sweating sweating.

Goodness.

Very bored., my sister went out go slack with her friends a while.

Don't know what time she want go home.

Nvmlah, don't care(:

haiyoo, i go get ready first lah. Later mama scold me if i late.

We'll be posting more soon.

Hazira sayaaaang kamu.

2009-05-30T23:29:00.000-07:00

Take my hand and i'll never let go ..

Yesterday was my SPLENDID day! (: I'm having fun fun fun at ESCAPE THEME PARK with my DARLING girlfriends. Started off my day with NETBALL CARNIVAL. It didn't went right for me. whatever lah, blah blah blah.. half way through thy carnival, i've lost my mood. I can't even smile properly, i was like .. being sarcastic most of thy time. But but but, after thy carnival was like .. okkay okkay lah. planned to go escape with ann, eyrah, finah.. but but but, finah couldn't make it. urghhh!, Then then then, last minute ann wanted to cancelled and i sent her smses full of fake tears and she pitied me. So she followed us(: Thanks ann sayang for tt greatest favour. hahaha! U make my day sayang <33>HOT and i'm TANNED! Omg. Nvmlah, as long as i'm enjoying myself with my DARLING girlfriends, [Ann,Eyrah,Firah,Siti,Iqa,Hunney] (: Ehhehh. Reached there, took our first ride ; VIKING. Wow! Best, Thy moment thy ship wanted to go down, my life was like.. wow, as if it's being pulled. Well, i gotta admit tt i nearly fainted. I was like thy whole time turning to ann and lean my head on her shoulder but actually wasn't her shoulder, but her ******. Sorry b, i didn't mean it(: I swear, sorry eh.. i know u freak out ready. hahahah! Then then then, go HAUNTED HOUSE. Scaryy lah! Not so, we went there like 3 times. Thy 4th time i went with my BOYFRIEND, Diniy(: then then got one ghost walking beside us.. i nearly fainted. Scaryy nak mampos! God. After tt went to FAMILY COSTER. And ohh, i missed one part, before tt my BOYFRIEND gave me a CUTE PINK BIG BEAR BEAR. I was like blushing, my face super red sia. Ehhehh(: Thank u so much babyy <33 It hurts me alot to see one of my DARLING crying. I know how she feels inside, her situation reminds me of my ex. Okkay enough, i don't want to talk about it. Guys like him all SUCK TO THY CORE! kp. After VIKING, thy second ride.. me, firah, hunney, iqa queue up for wet and wild. Wow! nabei, very long siakk. But then, we took pichaaaas(: I was bored. hahaha, kkay.. Whatever. After wet and wild go play SUPERMAN, fun.. i feel like flying. Ehhehh(: Then took our best photo shot ever at escape to remind us thy time we've spent together. Then off to EHUB, hunney wanted to go arcade. Then reached there ready,ann wanted to go ROOF. Last last, Roof is locked. haiyoo, waste time only. Nvm ann, we'll go next time kkay sayang(: Then go down 5th floor. Sit along thy so called "tunnel" and started to pose like super models. Hahaha(: Featuring hazira and her BEAR BEAR. Went home ard 9+ with diniy, firah, hunney. Well, i'll stop here. Too tired to type alot. Ehhehh(:

2009-05-24T23:05:00.000-07:00

Cute is when ur personality shines through ur looks(:

Heyy Asshole[s]! (:

ehhehh, as per normal lah..

i'm now at skewl library.

Doing nothing.

BORED.

later at 3pm got trainng.

Hahhhh, comfirm dying siakkkkk, thy wheather is so HOT!

please god, let it RAIN.

Ehhehh(:

Then i'll not sweat tt bad lah.

hahahahahahahah!

kkkkay, whatever lah.

As long i'm now in air-conditioned room.

A little happy.

hahahaha, now now now.. i'm craving for LOLLIPOPS(:

yummmmmmmmy.

hahahha, nvm.

& ehhhehhh, feels like HUGGING CARE BEAR.

kkay, WHATEVER. hazira is talking craps., anyone?? Crack some jokes & make me laugh can(:

...

....

Holidays COMING & I'm so can't wait.

but but 1st week got training lah..

haiyooo, i think i'm a litlle busy but ..

2nd & 3rd week, i think i'm gonna be FREE.

Yes ahhh, can go out..

:D :D :D

Plus plus plus, Daddy's coming home soon.

Comfirm gerek nyaaaaa!

hahaha, kkkay.. now i'm missing my TETEK BESTFRIEND ; shafinah.

hahahah. JANGAN MARAH AYE SAYANG OIEYYYYYY ;p

alright alright..

Can't stay to long.

gotta go already smelly asshole[s].

:D :D :D

Tcrss ^^

Haziralah.

2009-05-10T20:43:00.000-07:00

I get so emotional these days.
hmpfft. My days are freaking pathetic.
Dry my tears, pleaseeeee.
Take back all those freaking sad tragedies.
i hate to cry, i want to stop but i just can't.
I wish there's someone who is willing to hear my stories but me & my pathetic mouth can't even open up.
i keep to myself.
thought it could be better.
but these emotions, feelings.
Things won't get any better.
I guess we should have..
never mind.
Maybe i'm being overly thinking.
I gotta relacks my mind now.
will probably be inactive for a few days ;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e11UxAY58KI.

Langit begitu gelap,
hujan tak juga reda
ku harus menyaksikan
cintaku terenggut tak terselamatkan

Ingin ku ulang hari,
ingin ku perbaiki
Kau salah,
kau kubutuhkan

Beraninya kau pergi dan tak kembali

Dimana letak surga itu
Biar kugantikan tempatmu denganku
Adakah tanda surga itu
Biar kutemukan untuk bersamamu

Kubiarkan senangku menari di udara
Biar semua tahu kematian tak mengakhiri
cinta..

Apalah artinya hidup tanpa kekasihku
Percuma bila aku disini sendiri
Kekasihku,
bersamamu Kekasihku,
bersamamu Kekasihku,
bersamamu Kekasihku,
bersamamu Kekasihku,
bersamamu ..

2009-05-10T20:36:00.000-07:00

Agnes Monica(:
You rocks babe!
ehhehh,

okkkay okkkay, whoaaa.. long time never post.
haaaaaa! Stresss Stress Stress/.
Exams.
Blahblahblah & so on.
rightt, i'm back to my old days.
Now now, happy happy moments.
but but, daddy's going oustation soon)':
and and i'm gonna miss him.
Seriously, i got no mood for anything.
1 week or more.. gosh, i feel like crying.
it's gonna be thy whole week of silence without daddy.
And i'm sure mummy will surely be going to aunt house, She's comfirm bored one.
Haaaaa! i wanted to follow but then i'm schooling.
what thyy hell is thys?
Urghhhh!
Enough already..
Anyway, HAPPY 15 BIRTHDAY ABAAAAAANG TONCHITTT(:
ehhehh, may ur dreams & wishes come true.
Ohhh, & may god bless you with loveeeeeeeee.
i really hoped that today is going to be your happy day yeaaaah.
Tcrs yo' & Tcrs pepoooooooooos ; my dearest reader(:
heeeeeeeeee~
I'm off***

Haziralah sayaaaaang <3

2009-05-04T03:44:00.000-07:00

Yeaaaaah! Whatever okkkkay okkkkay okkkkkkay. (: Boring siaks. Superb pey BORINGGG.
I wanna go out but i can't. I got to study, EXAMS. Goshhh, thys thing really stress me out.
Nvmlaaaah, doing thys fr my future. Fr thy sake of my parents, my hard working parents in fact. Okkkkaylah, i can't be too long on comp. Gotta go soon. Need to revise, hahhh. I'm showing good examples am i? yeaaaaah whatever shyt HAZIRA. hahah, kkkaylah kkkaylah. I'm ending here. Mayb i'll not post fr a few days, weeks. who knows. hahhhhhh(: ohhkkkay ohhhkay ohhhkay. Ending here pepoooooooooooooooooos! Ehhehhehhehh ehhehhehhehhehh. All thy best yeaaaah suckaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas. Loveeeeeee ya'll aliyeeeeeeerns xD

2009-05-04T03:30:00.000-07:00

They people will never know. Never know how many steps it takes to come to thys level. You people will never know how many tears i've shed, bad times i've lead. Now, i'm happy enough. Thanks to him. But, another tragedies starts. I want thys to end, these bad tragedies. But how? I don't wish to tell anyone about it. Neither do i share with someone. I prefer to keep thys to myself. I know myself, & i know what exactly i'm doing. Though it's like thy biggest MISTAKE i took, i know tt i regretted about starting it. I should have known. Now, i wanna be thy old me. thy old inside me. I wanna be Mummy's lil' girl again. Though i'm growing, i do still need her attention. Mummy's my everything ; she can be my sweet, lovely, cute, understanding, kind mummu. My friend & also our family's everyday queen. Without mummy in thys world, we humans, young teachers in fact wouldnt be like thys. They're a mother which is god damn it precious in our life. Precious than anything else. I treasure my mum. I love her & i meant it. Whatever it is, she's thy best mummy i ever had in my life. I love her, i swear i really do. She tried her vey best to be a mummy tt's true, loveable towards her chldren & even giv her very best to come to us,. her sweet talks, her understanding world of teenages.. she's always thy best mum. My mum is a very speacial women. Mother's Day coming. & now, i'm repaying her back with a good resulting tt is proceeding now. A speacial "TREAT". & a warm hug, kiss. Ma, all i ever want is to be ur lil' girl again. I won't be naughty again. I'll listen to whatever it is. I promised to giv u thy best i can ma. i promised. & i'll make it come true. iloveyou mama, very very very much. Ur always number one in my life. I adore my mummy thy most. <33

2009-05-04T03:11:00.000-07:00

Well, back to my boring days. (:
sorry didnt post fr such a long time yeaaaaaah.
i was like bz these few wks.
Exams ard. today 1st paper, english.
okkaylah, i can do it but.. too tired.
very sleepy, haiyooo.
i hoped i did well yeaaah,
papers ens at 1+
blah blah blah.. *SKIPPED*.
& i'm preparing my first step, then second and so on..
trying my very best to impress both of my hard working parents.
well, i don't wanna disappoint them again especially my mummy..
She gave me thy best she ever can. doing her very best to be a good mother of mine.
indeed she is doing her part. except fr me.
& now, it's time fr me to repay everything.
i know by just g'ving her thy best result might not be enough but it's okkay.
atleast i know what i'm doing.
i promised her last time, many promises i did but i just couldnt make it come true.
but thys time, i really know what i'm doing.
i put my heart in it & yeaaaaah, i die die must pass.
mayb it's not tt much but i think it helps.
She's been stressing out with me.
me & my mischievious act, pathetic manners..
i just couldnt help it.
I dont want her to b ard my ass all thy time. nagging.. haishh, sorry ma. i'm very sorry. iloveu. <33
i know it's fr my own good.
but now, i'm growing up.
i did so many mistakes & i just dont know how to make her to forgive me.
i want my mummy.
god, pls help me. i didnt mean it tt way.
i wont be rude, i'll stick to thy rules & study hard.
just just giv me one last chance & i'll prove it.
pls. it's all i ever wanted.
i want mama's trust on me & her attention all thy time.
She's my everything.
my mummy, my friend, my everyday queen.
pleaseeee, I WANT MY MUMMY BACK.
I WANT HER ATTENTION.
PLEASE. i'll be a good girl, i will.
i'm just a growing girl who just want to know well more about my world.
& now i rgretted.
i've realised my mistakes ma.
pls, giv me bck all ur attentions.
i wanna be ur lill' girl again..
i dont care what people will say, i dont care if i'm growing older.. I WANT MY MUMMY'S ATTENTION BACK!
:'( fuckk u all suckaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas.
i will be a good girl, i promised.
i'll listen to u, everything mummy.
everything.
..
..
..

2009-04-26T00:38:00.000-07:00

Haziralah people(:

okkay, my days are fantastic.

blahblahblah.

i;m nothing to say.

kind of bored' now.,

chatting with md.idris, adeq hakim & fadhli.

haiyoo, i want go pasir ris today!

mendak siolxsxs di rumah.

arghhhhhh:'(

I'm like dying here.

omg,

haziyaaaaaaah! come home, cepat!

i die die must go today.

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-04-16T05:33:00.000-07:00

Urghhh ! idiot.

Shit ahh.

nvm nah, byelah.

cb.

2009-04-11T00:58:00.000-07:00

Loveeeeeeeeeeeeees/.

Alright! I'm going to focus now on my studies (:
exams coming. Die die must pass mid year exams!
hehh, then then can enjoyyyy.
hehehe.
Don't want make mama & papa dissappointed in me.
hehh, (:
okkkkaylah humans.
I gotta get going now.
tired of typing, feels like sleeping.
chioaaaa!
byelah ^^
ehhehh.

Haziralah Sayaaaaaang.

2009-04-04T22:00:00.000-07:00

Haziralah :D

Yesterday ; 040409.
Went century square with ziyah sayaaaaang.
bought new nail polish & hair accesories. (:
after tt, went airport.
Eat there.
boring right, we go toilet take pictures(:
Gyler siaks.,
kkaylah.
got a lot to share.
i lazy type.
(:
kkaylah., ending here ^^
Byelah.

2009-04-01T00:15:00.000-07:00

Monday ; 300309.
Aft skewl, slack with ann babyy & finah sayaaang at block near playground there.
At thy 16th floor(:
I'm happy.
So happy.
They smoke smoke.
i sit one corner, eating my fave biscuits.
Diet ah.(:
I was abt to cry but i was trying my very best to hold back my tears, so i opened thys crazy laugh.
Laugh laugh laugh till' my face was red.
nvm, so ann & finah go smoke.
i was a little dizzy.
planned to go for I.T. then i forgot.
i drank redbull.
blah blah blah,
i want go home ready.
then saw zat & "monster" (:
no offence ah.
they thought i smoke cb.
but then i didnt!
World lah sials.
They say they smell cigg on my uni.
Freaaaaaaaak!
abey hazira kene tudoh siaks.
pikey funny per :P
haiyo,
dalah dalah. enough kkay.
byelah.

2009-04-01T00:14:00.002-07:00

Haziralah.

2009-04-01T00:14:00.001-07:00

Haziralah.

2009-04-01T00:13:00.000-07:00

Haziralah.

2009-04-01T00:12:00.000-07:00

Haziralah.

2009-04-01T00:08:00.000-07:00

Heeeeeeeeeey Heyy ! (:
Finally get to slack with my wife, kak mira.
haha!
okkkkay, ytd. was so fun lah cb.
Laugh laugh laugh.
like omg, pain siaa my tummy.
:D
Can't wait for thursday.
see who scream.
Blah blah blah ;
Sorry aye, i got no mood for more.
Bye lah.

2009-03-25T00:48:00.000-07:00

Not a single soul can ever replaced him.

Pls, have my words in mind.
i meant it what i say & i will nt regret of making thys options.
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i love him.

I was once thys ; Momente In Denen Man Sterben Will...

2009-03-25T00:45:00.000-07:00

Listen to your heart.

"CASE OF MY EX."
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND KKAY.
NOW HAVE TT IN MIND ; ASSSSSSSSSSSSHOLES !
NOT A SINGLE SOUL CAN EVER REPLACE HIM IDIOT,.
NOT A SINGLE SOUL !

2009-03-25T00:20:00.000-07:00

U never know how hurt i am feeling inside.

Back to thyy old times yeaa ;
Tired of crying,
Babyy it's driving me crazy !

kkkkkay, craps-.-

Tired of running ..
individual 800m.
Blaaaaaaah ! Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !
What's wrong with me ?
I'm now weak.,
Not thyy old me.,
Whyy is things like thys happening to me ?
i let my frens down.,
Omg! Is there another way to bring back thyy past ?

I was running ..
after completing thyy first round i nearly fall ..
idk whyy.
My tummy hurts on thy right.
All i care is abt my classmates & nvr think how it hurts inside.
I was stupid, so stupid to run when i'm weak.
Half way ; i almost complete ..
But then i fall.
I'm lack of oxygen.
i hug myself & i cried.
my vision is blurred.
my head's gone heavy.
idk what to do.
i heard opie's voice ; "Babyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!"
i cried.
i can't breathe.
i hardly walk.
my head.
idk if i'm sick.
i lied.
i said i was fine but i wasn't.
i dont want my friends to think of me.
i know i;ve made them feel disappointed.
i let it go ..
thys is thyy first time i'm giving up.
My mum knows abt it.,
& i probably quiting netball :'(
Three days straight & i still can feel thyy pain.
Mummy said she's bringing me for a check up on thurs.
I'm scared.
Enought already,
I'm stopping here..
^^

Boy, u never know how it feels like it.
U left me & now u want me back.
What's with u?
I won't go back to u, never ..
I love s'one else,
&& no one can ever replace him,
not a single soul ..
I'm sorry.

Little bit - Forget abt me.
1st lady - Never be replaced.

2009-03-18T21:43:00.000-07:00

More pics are to be upload ..

2nd day & 3rd day next.

Camera here don't want look-.-'

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET ! (:

&& hazira yhen go ;
Shaaaaaa-laa-laaaaaaaaaaaaas !
:P

Kidos ! :D

Idk whyy my hand is always on my mouth like thys when i sleep.
hmm ,..
[ps] Totaly not sucking it kkay-.-

Finally i sleep (:
hahh, i can't remember who took thys.
Well, now i know how my sleeping position like..
ehhehh !

Daniaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal ! (:
isnt he's cute?
hhhhahahahahha!

Thys picture was taken on 170309. hahh, at 1.37am(:
In Danial & Hazira's Sleepless night.
ehhehh ,

2nd day(:

Lalalalalalalalalalaaaaa(:
I'm hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot(:
ehhehh,

Goooooooooooood ! (:
Eat & Enjoyy.

Chicken + Satay & Satay + chicken (:

Haziralah(:

Iffah(:

From left to right ; Haiqal, Hazira, Risqy & Risqon.
hahh(:

Risqy, why u move ?!
urgggghhhh !, aiyaaa , nvm lah.

Nice hair-done boy (:
hahah!

Haiqal & Hazira(:
Smile ***

Thys is when my ph got wet.
Haishh! ):

Hahh, Aloha Pool Side Terrace 9.

From left to right : Papa, uncle rizal & Cik wee !

Hahh, thyy kids & me!
Hmm, it's nt tt clear uh.
nvm, I'm in black(:
Spot me?

I was again about to laugh!
haha, && yeaa .. thys is iffah(:
Isn't she's cute?
hahh,

Hahh, Thys was when papa & Uncle rizal start bbq-ing.
hehh, i was abt to laugh when thys Shot was taken.
hehehe!

Heyy Look! Thyy kids.
They're having fun(:
haha,

Syahsyah, My Sunshine.
I love her babe(:
hehh,

Amirun, my Hotstuff(:
hehh, Isn't he's cute ?
hahh!

Hahh, Finally she looked at thy camera.
hahh, she was bz looking at thy swimming pools.
hhah!
&& thanks to haiqal.
He took thys shot.
Nice one boy ! (:

Salsabilah Everyone!
Isn't she's cute?
Ehhehh, i love you babyy <33>

I'm looking at Iffah's phone(:
haha, Coooool uh!
XD

Credits to Iffah!(:
omg, hazira got fat legs-__________-"

Darling Iffah took thys(:
Credits to her!
heheh, i love you girl. <33>

Iffah & Daiyana took thys.
Credits to them! heheh, Lovess <33>

Coooooool kans kans kans? (:
ehhehh, yeaaaa hazira!

Hahh, Boredd'.
Reflections,

Dearest Daiyana ; I love you girl!
haha, She got kissed by Hazira.

Smile! Hahh, Thys is thy best shot.
I can't remember who took it,
i think syahfiq.
hhah! yeaa, Credits to syahfiq ! <33>

1st day(:

Candid! i was smilling at mama(:
hahahaa,

2009-03-18T20:48:00.000-07:00

Hehh, monday ..
Cancelled/.
I didnt go training ):
B'coz, i'm having a slight fever.
Freak!
Go chalet,
Reached there sit sit.
There's only my cousins & my family.
My aunts & uncles weren't there yet, they went shop but food i guess.
Hahh, nvm.
As for me, i do my own thing(:
Listen to songs.
Sms-ing.
hhah!
Then then then, daiyana & iffah .. they called me,
asked me go upstairs.
i followed them.
we sit at thy staircase there then i took pictures.
a picture of myself & daiyana.
Too bad iffah don't want to join us.
She's shyy! hehe, cute siaa(:
nvm,
Many shots laa!
later i'll upload(:
&& there's vedios too.
hehe!
kkay kkay,
I ate a lot siaa!
omg, && I'm gaining again):
haiyoo, gotta jog more, gotta excersize more, gotta jump more!
"Anyone! Who wants to slim down??"
I know finah & ann will join me(:
Wait till' june okkay?
I lazy uhh march hols(:
hehe!
anw, they're my perfect frens(:
&& hazira love them.
hehe!
kkay, baccck to my story!
.. Chalet uhh ..
hahh, they went swimming(:
Hazira dont swim.
got reasons .. *** Shh!
hahh, kkay.
I was cold.
sneeze sneeze sneeze.
my turned red & i got teased):
haishh! nvm. hazira can control temper(:
Go watch thy kids swim.
Then my parents go beach, they left me):
ape sey!
nvm, i majok.. go inside my room.
sit there all alone.
ignore ppl's talking.
Then skali, my cousins, thy little boys startled me!
siakk uh, i thought who sia.
haishh! korang eh, ishkkkkkkk!
nvm, hazira's nt afraid.
Kkay, it was night.
papa & uncle rizal bbq-ing.
i sit sit inside watch tv.

then, nothing to do, i go walk along thy pool side since my cousins, aunts swimming ..
Then tt haiqal so bad go shoot me water with my brother's water gun.
My ph & kak ain's ph wet sia!
i very angry!
Then hate it when i'm wet!, then i go in uh.
Dowan talk rdy.
blah blah blah.
then it's vry late at night(:
i cnt sleep, thy bed hard sia!
Then got ntg to do right ..
Since danial is being irritating, disturb everyone who's trying their vry best to sleep, i took pictures with him!
hah!, && yeaa .. i dont sleep with my cousins(:
My siblings & i were sleeping with my parents .. in 1 bed(:
hee~
kkay. nxt day.
Omg! I woke up so early siaa ..
omg! i cant sleep properly siaa.
Wish i was at home, in my lovely room(:
my Soft-marshyy-mellow-pillow(:
haha! i miss it ..
hahh, kkay kkay.
Morning come! Thy kids went swimming again-______________-"
haiyoo!
Tk penat ke krg ni?
tsk tsk, 1day swimming almost 5times i think.
Hours!
haiyoo, nvm ..
i was bz with my ph sms sms sms.
Then check2 my parents also swimming!
haha, cute siaa ..
but but b4 tt i took pictures with them(:
mama nt wearing scarf.
hahh, she just swim.
kkay, ltr i'll upload(:
Then i boring right, nvm.. i run to thy kitchen & ask bibik take care my ph & inhaler.
hahh, i swim!
Omg! cold siaa, nvm. just 4 tt day only(:
Then go jaquzzi.
hahh, funn .. thyy water is warm.
i like(:
then my cousins & elfiey go splash water to me!
Urghhhh, freaaaak!
I'm wearing contacts siaa swimming.
Ohhhh my allah.
But actually pain uh my eyes.
Thyy water is nt clean/.
)":
My body vry itchy sey.
then went upstair & shower.
Scrub my body then went out.
Start sneezing.
WTH!
haiyoo, i play games on my lappy while waiting for mama to finish showering.
Aft tt, she pray.
I dont(:
Lazy.
haha, instead i took pictures again.
hahahahah!
hazira gituh lor, loves taking pictures;D
hahaha, ..
kkay. bbq again.
thys time i help papa do tt satay thingy.
omg!
i was sweating.
my eyes pain siaa.
nvm, endure..
haha!
half way i cnt tahan/. my hand hot hot hot rdy/.
hahh, so, go inside ask bibik take for me food then i eat .. alone(:
haha!
then my aunts, uncles, papa& mama came .. disturb me.
haha!(:
"Eh, zira mkn sorang zira? Tk jemput pon. senyup2 mkn. Haha! lapar eh?"
i only smile.
haha, like duuuh! i hungry(:
thyy whole afternoon tk mkn ohh ..
swimming then maen game nyer pasal.
haha!(:
*wink/wink*
hhaaha!,
Aft tt, help aunt sarinah mark her students wb.
English & maths..
Primary 3(:
Aft tt, she asked me sleep.
hahh., Stress u know;D
Now i know whyy teachers got angry at us somethimes..
they're tired.
kesian.,
nvm .. i'll be a good girl nxt time(:
*two fingers up*
haha!
aft tt, went in aunt zah's room with mama.
half way mama went in thy room with papa.
i accompany aunt zah coz' she's scared(:
she's with her facebook replying her friends comment.
I'm helping(:
hahh, my cousins & sibblings all asleep.
except me n my parents, aunts, uncles.
hahh, & yeaa .. once uncle mind reached alrdy, i went bck to my room(:
hahh, sleeeeeeeeeeep.
nxt mrng. pack up.
Gettin rdy to go home.
check out ard 10+ in thy morning.
haiyoo, sad .. i wish can extend thy day sia.
:'(
haishh, nvm .. it's kept as memories.
Precious memories..
haishh,
inside car, i took pics.
kkay, reached home. received msg by eyrah.
saying tt she's going netball.
Omg! i panicked.
thought i'm gonna b late.
i rush in my room put on jersey & fbt.
asked bibik to opened thy door/.
then i go msg eyrah, "what time?"
i run outside.
put on slipper*Paiseyy rdy*.
i forgot abt my skirt-__________-"
run bck.
baru recived msg.
she said 2-6!
alamaaaaak, takot siaa.
i thought i'm late!
omg, lucky.
hahah!(:
paiseyy ah.
paiseyy.
heheh, then bibik want go shop.
Adeq2 asked mama buy ice-cream.
they hungry.
then mama asked bibik go tmart & buy.
bibik asked me along/(:
haha, okkay lah .. i want follow.
aft tt, otw home, bibik bought me waffle with butter(:
haha! yeaaa, sayaaaaaaang bibik:D
hehe!
Thank you bibik, hehe!
*skipped*
12+ rdy.
take my bag, put on shoes n run to 291 bus stop.
omg! i was sweating siaa, hot some more thy weather.
i got headache):
nvm , have to endure.
must have thy strong spirit.
haishh! thys nyamok irritate me siaa!
wish it dies tmr tmr tmr tmr.
urgggggggh!
sms-ing diniy & iman+adeq,
haha!
haaaaaaa, finally bus came(:
yeaaaah!
hahh,
saw azim, naim& syafiq(:
bye to them.
hahh, miss u guys.
hahh!
Meet eyrah at junyan there.
kimaaaaaaak! my nose bleed sia!
cb, nvm.
i go home,
tk jdy g netbal:'(
kkay, done done.
i think i've talked a lot here.
Ending here^^

Eeraaa Babyy;
Memories we had are to be kept deep down in my heart.
i love you.

2009-03-15T19:43:00.000-07:00

I'm still holding on(:

Haziraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
ehhehh(: Busy day today.
i got netball training today,
so later meeting eyrah at my house ard 12+.
She's coming over(: hehh,
then go skewl ard 1+.
aft training, gonna meet mama & papa at pasir ris inter.
then go chalet.
hahh, I'm sure gonna be surrounded by little kids(:
haha!, "Kak zira! Kak zira!".
omg, so cute.
hahh,.
Going to be 3days 2nights.

But, idk why i suddenly got no mood.
i got no mood for training, no mood to eat, no mood to enjoy.
i just feel like sleeping thy whole day.
I think i got a temperature..
yesterday, opie came my house(:
hahh!. fun fun fun..
laugh laugh laugh, omg .. feel like dying sia laughing like mad dog.
hahh! Thanks dearest opie for thy quality time we've spent ytd.
hahh, after i finish showering, go afghan there meet kak sharifah(:
Cute sia her.
hahh, play under thy rain till we reached tampines north primary there.
Go sit sit under block 427(:
hahh, for a while only then i go home.
Reached home by bus 28 -_-'.,
Hmm, who knows abt thy bus 28.. diam saja yeaa, hahh. malu gytuh lor(:
nvm.,
Bibik& adeq2 all getting rdy to play under thy void deck.
omg! i was in mama room watching ; pontianak harum sundal malam.
I was watching alone sia!
i didnt realise tt i was thy only one alone at home.
hahh, but i dont feel scared.
hahh(:
But i'm afraid of thy dark.
Ohhhhh!
.. I was shivering.
I very lazy what, i dowan shower aft playing under thy rain.
then now, i'm having a headache.
hahh, dont care lah..
I'll get better soon(:
hehh!.
Alright alright ppls,
gotta end here.
need to shower & meet eyrah(:
hahh, tcrs dearest<33

Thyy smile on ur face makes my heart go whoo-hooo!.
ehhehh(:
iloveyou.

2009-03-15T18:57:00.000-07:00

Think abt it.

Wasting my time talking to unknown viewers..
They're talking craps here on com.
I don't know what they want.
Whyy are they judging me over a small matter.
Haiyoo, whyy these person can't have their own life sia ?
Hahh, nvm lah kkay(:
They probably don't have thy life i have..
whyy does jealousy occurs ?
***
I'm sick of thys crap & i have enough of it!

Specially to unknown viewers ;

GET A LIFE LAH KKAY!
UR SERIOUSLY WASTING UR TIME ON MY BLOG.
IF U HATE ME SO MUCH JUST BACK OFF!, SIMPLE AS IT SAYS ; SHOOO!
I'M THY WRITER OF MY WHOLE JOURNEY.
SO, LET IT BE!
LET ME LEAD MY OWN LIFE..
I DON'T NEED UR HELP TO CHANGE ME.
UR NOT GOD WHO CREATED ME.
UR A JUST A HUMAN BEING..
NOBODY'S PERFECT!
UR NO ONE TO ME.
UR JUST PATHETIC ENOUGHT TO JUDGE PPL.
HEYY! SEE URSELF IN THYY MORROR LAH KKAY!
UR WHAT U ARE & I'M WHAT I AM.
I DON'T JUDGE PPL BASE ON THEIR COVERS.. I JUDGE THEM BASE ON THEIR HEART.
IF U THINK WHAT U DID NOW DOES MAKES UR LIFE FEELS GOOD,
U JUST MOVE ON & CONTINUE BEING PATHETIC LIKE THYS.
UR LIFE WHAT, HAVE IT UR OWN WAY.
SERIOUS TALKING ; IT'S THYY BEST WAY U GO & START A BETTER LIFE/.
STOP JUDGING LAH ALRIGHT?!

Hey dearest links.(:
if an unknown viewers attacked u on ur blog, just say thys to them ;
" get ur own life! "
tt's all.
we'll see how long they want to judge us like thys.
Can it be thys rest of their life?
NO.
They're not god who created us.
Their simply a human beings but acted like animals who only know how to fight on com.
Ouhh well, ending here.
Tcrs(:

2009-03-15T18:34:00.000-07:00

I can control my anger and i'll prove it(:

Nesh ; whatever u wanna say it all out abt me just say it kkay(:
no point i fight with u on com.
It's better to fight face to face..
what's wrong with u idk.
i may nt know who u really are,
i dont even care if u want to talk abt me .. all i know it's just bad rumours..
i swear to u tt u can't live like thys for long..
judging ppl all u like.
but pls, dont drag any other person in thys conversation we had..
it's between me & u.
Yea so what if i'm lower sec, emotional, sensitive ?
my frens call me babyy, does it has to do with u?
huhh? why u scared? haiyooo , PATHETIC !
why? why must fight over who i really am & what i have?
i dont understand u.
omg, u go change first lah kkay,
ur talking craps on com..
i dont really care abt thys.
i'm sick of thys crap.
& yeaa, ur no one to me.
so, it's better u know me well then judge kkay..
i dont judge u.
i dont know what's my mistake to u.
so. it's better u tell me who u are?
& let me think abt thys past mistakes i did to u or perhaps ur guy kkay?
fair enough?
If im wrong then i'll appologies & if i did was what a revenged for u.. then it means tt i'm expecting something from u.
seriously alright?
so just tell me ur name lah eh?
minah ni seme tk maen lah ..
u look urself in thyy mirror..
if u think ur so perfect then it's all up to u kkay(:
i believe tt there's no one perfect in thys world.
So just back off & start ur own life!
No use for u to continue judging ppl base on what they have or what they meant in thys world to others.
kkay, it's all up to u..
i dowan fight over thys crap.
U think abt it.
does fighting with a lower sec like me worth it?
haiyoo, get a life lah kkay.

2009-03-13T05:49:00.000-07:00

sorry guys,
long time nvr post.
I'm nt in a mood actually, problems problems problems ..
haiyoo, where's thyy memories we ever had?
thyy quality times we've spent?
thyy loved we ever shared?
thyy warmest hug & thyy support we usually give it to each other?
where's thyy frens i used to have?
thyy old us.
thyy old us i used to be..
precious moments, precious memories, precious love ..
everything i used to know.
& i used to have .. deep inside my heart.
Seriously, we're now moving on our separate ways..
having it our own decision.
in thyy presence of r'ship in life time,
it seems like we're no longer us we used to be.
i dont care what r'ship problem u guys are having but pls, nvr leave each other just b'coz of u guys r'ship problems..
though, everyone's having their own problems ..
i have mine & u guys have urs..
but tt doesnt mean we have to leave each other right?
look, i didnt blame r'ship.
im blaming each of us..
attitude.
even i am having bad attitude,
r'ship is NEVER thyy reason tt we're LEAVING EACH OTHER !
guys, i'm thyy person here whose trying my VERY BEST to keep us together.
where's thyy promises we had?
i'm here leaving in 2 yrs time & thys is thyy crap i'm having?! what thyy hell is this ? )':
what does all of thys means?
please, its my only wish.. i want everyone back together ..
just back together.
i want everything back to thyy way it used to be.
i just miss thyy old times.
thyy old us,
what frens are for? we promised to stand up for each other, stick together no matter what happens.
dont care how big thyy problem we're facing .. frens is still there to listen to ur problems..
now guys, i dowan to cry just b'coz we're breaking apart..
it's just tt, each & every of us seems to changed.
we're no longer thyy old us ..
we giv black faces, show temper ..
thys is nt us !
omg ..
please, please let me have my last wish ..
:'(
i love you guys forever ,
u guys will always remain in my heart ;

Opie
Finah
Adeq yaya
Lela
Bobby
Manja

they're my frens ..
they're thyy frens who always cheer me up.
They're thyy bestest among all ..
we stood up for each other ..

finah ; she's where i usually cry at. thanks dearest. i love you <33
adeq; my lovely cousins whose there by me, take care of me & protect me. i love you sayaaaang<33
opie ; she's always thyy ferst person who ceered me up. i love her & always will. [bestfriends since sec1] <33
bobby & manja ; There's thyy best & i love you guys <33

2009-03-13T05:37:00.001-07:00

HEY GUEST !
SHUT UR BLOODY FUCKING MOUTH ALRIGHT ?!
HAAAAAAH !WHAT? UR PRETTIER ? U GOT TO BE KIDDING ME BYTCH ! HAHAHA !
Whose prettier or not , I DONT CARE !
I DONT CARE HOW UGLY I LOOK LIKE !
AS LONG AS I'M NOT A SHOWING-OFF PERSON , A BIG SLUT && A BIG BIG BIG BIG JERK JUST LIKE YOU !
YOU GET TT FREAK ?
HAHH, U SAID URSELF PRETTIER ?
ARE YOU SURE ?
SEE THYY MIRROR PROPERLY ALRIGHT B-Y-A-T-C-H ?
YOU KNOW WHAT ? I'M SICK OF THYS CRAP.
I DONT CARE !
I DONT CARE !
I DONT CARE !
WHY MUST SAY IT OUT AT TAG BOARD ?
NO GUTS SEE ME UH ?
SCARED ?
NOT HAPPY , FIND ME & TELL ME FACE TO FACE LAH KKAY ?
I HATE PPL LIKE YOU WHO ONLY DARE TO TALK AT COM BUT FACE TO FACE .. HAIS ,
gET UR BLOODY FUCKING ASS OFF MY SIGHT KKAY CHEEE-BYEEE !
NOOB :p
NOOB :p
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOB :p

muke take care lah ehh , if i find out who u really are ?
just face it kkay .
face thyy consequences tt ur gonna get !
kanin kanasai !

2009-03-05T01:57:00.000-08:00

Cool huhh?
haha , love mine?
hahah! Hilarious ..
What a joke.
Marcus darling , Hazira POP , Calling cally(:
I love you guys.

2009-03-05T00:56:00.000-08:00

Because i love you , that's why i did it.
Everything i did , was a linked to u.
U get tt ?
Tt's whyy i've been hiding this ..
Saying this was nothing.
get my frens affected.
I'm sorry,
it's just the way it is ..
Dont u ppl know ur actually controlling my life worst than my parents controlled me.
Does my life mean anything to u ppl ?
Whyy must u ppl control my life in r'ship?
Do u know exactly how am i feeling?
Huhh? Do u know why i'm crying badly these days ?
All b'coz of u ppl !
u hurt me by just commenting n talking.
*sobbing*
pls, dont expect anything bad from me.
i nvr had thyy intention of leaving someone i loved thy most.
never were my intention aft all.
I promised tt if something bad happened in my r'ship, im gonna slit my hand badly in front of u ppl.
Let u ppl see how hurt i am.
*crying*

2009-03-01T01:54:00.000-08:00

Haziralah ;

Property owned .

Ur now a part of me that's god damn precious ..

Babyy , i love you .

2009-03-01T01:51:00.000-08:00

Opieku tercinta ;

2009-02-27T22:35:00.000-08:00

I had a bad dream yesterday & This morning is the same dream i had yesterday .
Today | 280209 .
Woke up ard 6am ,
Check my ph & received msg from dearest boyfee ..
pulled my blankey n hug my pillow tightly , then went bck to sleep as i'm still sleepy .
Therefore , i dreamt abt my parents ..
Well , it's complicated ..
I dont feel like telling coz' it'll make me cry somehow .
Luckly it was just a dream ..
No one really know what i really dreamt ytd & today except dearest boyfee ..
Omg ! seriously ..
All i can tell is tt , i was crying in my dream , Have this problem with breathing .
I was forcing myself to breathe ..
It's killing me .
I was sobbing in reality .
My maid was shocked .
This mrng , ard 9am .. when i woke up , i found out tt my pillow was wet .
Wet bcoz' of my tears .
Omg ! i should have listen to my parents ..
Thanks to me for being such a stubborn kid .
I should have bath & say my prayers b4 sleep .
I didnt did tt bcoz' i was like damn tired aft skewl ..
stressed with my result ; * SobSob*
Nvm ,

Let's just hope this dream wouldnt come true .
I swear tt i want this family to move on in a happy situation .
I love my parents .
I'll promised to listen to h\them .
Not gonna dissapoint them nor be rude to them .
Mama & papa I'm sorry if i did so many sins towards you two .
I'm sorry .
I wont scold syasyah , syahfiq , amirun , elfiey & danial again .
Unless they did something which you two cant acpt it .
I wont be rude to bibik nor be lazy .
I've learned my lesson .
I'll promised to be a good girl like i used to .
Thanks for the support bee ; i really really do appreciate that .
& iloveyoutoo .

2009-02-27T07:26:00.000-08:00

Boring ; boring ; boring ; boring ; boring !

Missing him , missing him , missing him (:
ehhe , relaxs babyy .. its only 3 days alright ,
alaaa ! fuckk uhh , 3 days tk jumpe .
kimakk ,
i'm missing him badly laa seyy !
ARGHHHHHHHH !! :(
Bee , i miss youu .